My Dear Eleen

Trolling Valentine

2012-02-14T23:20:00.008Z

Yohhh people! How's your Valentine? I celebrated mine with my friends in the buffet restaurant. We decided to celebrate together so that we don't look that "sad" on Valentine. Hah!

Early morning, get myself prepare for the Valentine celebration. Decided not to wear contact lens that often. So, I put on my Dior! Buaha! One of reason, I need something to cover my panda eyes. Hah!

Top from H&M.

Tights from Primark

Boots from Tangs, Snowfly.

Besides, I set my hair myself too! Wahaha! It looks kinda messy. Do you like the bottom part? My classmate taught me that! Hehehe...

This is the restaurant we visited. It's Ming Moon. There were a lot of people waiting to be seated when me and LeeTeng reached there. After a while, the waiter arranged for the seats. Most of the customers were like 2 - 4 person. When the waiter came to us, we said we need 9 seats. The waiter's reaction was like this (O.O) Hahahaha! Of course, me and LeeTeng laughed on the spot. Oh kay loh! We are both single but heart taken. Hmmm...

Some of the photos taken by using Instagram:

Oh! Besides, I got Valentine's Gifts from YenYen and also Jane!

Chocolate cup from Jane and Ferrero Rocher from YenYen. I was surprised to get Valentine Gift from Jane. Honestly, we didn't really talk to each other before. We only met each other once and I got to know more about her on Instagram. Haha! Such a surprise. She made me feel loved and warm on this special day. Of course, YenYen too. :)

We had our lunch for... Guess how long? 5 hours! Crazy! Hahahaha! Eat, talk, joke, laugh and then eat again.

After the long lunch, we walked around the city centre. Nothing much to talk about it. Just share some random photos I taken during the walk.

This is so sweet! Right!? ;) LeeTeng asked me to walk to the man. Who knows he might give me one. LOL. WTH.

Walking around in some stores and saw this... So vintage! How I wish I can bring this home. Hahaha! Such pretty and vintage!

The store is selling some pottery too. I like these so much! I want to have this in my future home! And I wish to learn making pottery so much! :)

We went back around 7pm. Reached the hostel and then... T-A-D-A-H!

Valentine's Day is so important in Western countries huh! Hah! My hostel looks so lovely today. :)

Not to forget.... I bought a red wine few days ago. Any nice wine to introduce to me? ;P

Valentine's night. Chilling. Alone... Sobs. Who wanna join me? ;(

Last but not least...

Becomes...

HAHAHAHAHA!

Dear single friends, you are not alone. Cause we are together "Together Alone"!

An old song that I heard in the restaurant.

That's it. My "trolling" Valentine! Got sleepy and a little tipsy after the alcohol session... Night peeps!

Can't deny. I do miss him...

A Productive Day

2012-02-13T23:25:00.001Z

Today is a productive day. Normally, I just go to class, show the lecturer my works, get critiques and suggestion from the Tutor and then go back home. But, today is different. My Tutor emailed us the night before to ask us to prepare for a life drawing. This is the first time I have "class" with my classmates. Honestly, I didn't really meet all my classmates. Because most of them didn't appear most of the time. I have no idea why. "Ghost classmate" Haha!

These are all my fashion sketches. Each sketches are not more than 15 minutes. Some are 5 minutes. Some are 10 minutes.

The first sketch, second sketch and the third sketch.

We took turn to pose in front of the class. I didn't include all the portraits. I focus on fashion garments for some of the sketches. And one of the classmate is wearing Adidas by Jeremy Scott today. Shoes with wings!

I have to tell you that my instinct feeling is super "zhun" these days. My Tutor wrote our names on paper and make it something like a voting ballot. You know what? I was thinking... Who knows I might get my own name. Then, guess what? I really got my own name. WTH. Thought becomes thing.

There is another thing, I saw a girl wearing a same coat that I have in the city centre on last week. She wears the coat with a pair of magenta colour gloves. I remember this well because I love the colour combination. Guess what? Today, I met this girl again, in the university campus, wearing the same coat and the same magenta gloves! Haha! Maybe it means nothing to you. But I feel so... Erm... Don't really know how to describe the feeling.

Okay, skip! Back to the topic.

These are the sketches that I did these days for the Degree Major Project. Just some sharing...

My sketches and idea development for the Fashion Journal.

All the sketches and work progress.

Misse (which is me) character design and exploration.

Perfumes drawing and... Victoria Secret lingerie. Hehehe...

The layout of the Fashion Journal. The first stage progress.

Yea, basically this is what I am doing these days. Gotta work hard! I am really happy that I had a productive day today. Done so many fashion sketches in the morning. Feeling so contented!

These days, I keep thinking of myself living in my own house, my own apartment. A beautiful home with white door, wooden floor and Bohemian carpet. Lace curtain, the sun shines into the kitchen and a pot of Daisy on the kitchen table. I wish I could live there someday... With my love ones.

Everyday, I am looking forward for a better tomorrow.

Till then.

Little by Little

2012-02-12T18:04:00.004Z

Hello people. Just some curiosity. What's your way of expressing your feeling and thoughts? Especially when you are sad. Well, I used to be... Crying to my friends, crying to my sister, crying on my blog... Hah! If you did the same thing like me, do you find it helps? Personally, I think it did help a little because sometimes your friends might inspired you.

So many things happened to me for the pass few months and I guess, crying to someone or crying on blog no longer works for me. You know? You don't need to let the whole world know that you are sad because sometimes no one can really help you. The only person that you can rely on is you yourself.

Well, when I got into the negative mood. What I used to do is meditate! I have to say that meditation really helps me in improving my personality. What I do is to sit on my "magic carpet" for sometimes, close my eyes, stop thinking nonsense, breathe deep, let the feeling come and go... It works for me. Everytime after the yoga and meditation session, I feel like a brand new person. I enjoy the progress of soul searching.

Mum once told me "Nobody would like to stay with someone who is full of anger and negativity. Be a good girl, always get 100 marks in other people's heart. Do what you think is right. Don't do things that might hurt other people." She is wise, she is the strongest woman that I ever met who gone through a terrible marriage and she is my mother. I hope I make her proud in becoming a strong woman, success in my career and also having a good personality.

What's in front of my reading desk and keeps me positive and growing strong:

I choose to believe in God, in all things... The good and the bad. What about you?

All I ever wanted is him to be happy...

行到水穷处，坐看云起时。:)

Had really bad headache recently. The doctor said I got headache easily since I was very young. Uncle brought me to the doctor and I had acupuncture to cure my headache. The doctor pocked the needles on my head and I never mention this to anyone... Unbelievable lehhh... Hah! Another bad headache tonight and it causes insomnia. Sigh... Another Panadol? :(

Current Status

2012-02-11T14:45:00.003Z

Eyes and head are painful. Lying on the bed. Feeling the body sinking into the bed. Falling sick in the foreign country is not fun.

Another experience in the UK. Unforgettable one.

Let it snow

2012-02-04T18:10:00.006Z

Finally, it's snowing! The news reported that Birmingham is not going to snow this year. My friend told me about that and I said I don't believe it... Haha! It will snow, it must snow and now... It's snowing outside my window!

It's the first snow of my life. :)

Window view.

My living place.

Snow angel in progress...

Having fun.

Favourite shot with my Armani Exchange A|X

For you and for me ♥

What I learnt in UK - Never 100% believe in the weather forecast. Haha.

Till then! :)

Last Minute @ London

2012-02-03T16:56:00.013Z

This is the last minute decision. We decided to go London, bought the ticket and travelled on the next day. Luckily, we got the cheap tickets, plus using our rail cards, it's even cheaper. Basically, I went to London this time to show my friends around. Sounds like a tour guide. Haha! Taught them to travel with the London Underground and also showed them around the city centre.

Besides, the other motive we went to the London is because me and LeeTeng would like to visit a travelling agency which she found online. I suggested to visit the travelling agency and got the information from the office. So, we travelled there, got the information for the Europe trip which we are interested - 26days, 14 countries. My uncle gave me the green light! Of course, I will need to pay the other half by myself, more jobs and more payment. Going to party in Barcelona for 3 days. There will be beaches. Going to work on my tan. Bikini is a must. It's going to be crazy and fun.

Actually, I was thinking to follow the trip this time to get to know the places in Europe. I have a crazy thought... Someday, I wanna plan a Europe trip to visit Europe again with the love ones. I want an adventures and a romantic one. :)

Alright. I am quite lazy to type this time. So, let the photos do the talking.

Woke up in the morning. Birmingham is blessed with beautiful sky.

Tickets from Birmingham New Street to London Euston.

Tickets from London Euston back to Birmingham New Street.

On the train, we had breakfast! Prepared by YenYen again! She made sandwiches for us!

Tuna salad.

Salmon salad.

My mini muffin. Super mini one.

Me and LeeTeng on train with our muffins.

Spotted. The One Hairdressing. Hah!

After visiting the travel agency, me and LeeTeng came back to the Piccadilly Circus and walked to the China Town which located at the Gerrard Street to meet our friends to have lunch in a Japanese restaurant, Misato. I don't really feel "Japanese" over there. But the food is famous because it's nice, cheap and big.

Me with my super tiring eyes.

Chicken Terriyaki Rice. Hmmm...

YenYen ordered sushi.

After our lunch, I brought them to the nearest London attraction - M&M World. Didn't take much photos because I have been there before.

And then, we headed to the Regent Street and Oxford Street. I love there. The places are very beautiful.

It's evening in London. Beautiful sky.

And then, we went shopping at a souvenir store in London. My friends saw the T-shirt that I bought for my brother last time and they wanted to buy it too. So, I brought them to the place to do some shopping.

Amber is one of the friend who I met when I was working in The One Academy in Sunway. She is a Graphic Designer and she is taking Fashion Design in St. Martin, London. A very expensive art school. Best of the best.

Look. She is checking the underground route on the T-shirt. Haha!

Beckham for H&M at Oxford Street. VB is a lucky woman, isn't it? :P

London's Apple Store.

Very beautiful...

Not to forget to give compliment to the Apple Store. My Macbook Pro had some problem with the start up few weeks ago. I called Apple and they cut my line because my phone is out of credit. Guess what? The Apple called me back! The staff helped me to solve the problem, but failed. So, they booked the time for me and I sent my Macbook Pro to the Apple Store on time. They fixed it for me on the spot. Explained what happened. As I can see, the system of Apple company is very good and systematic, including the Macbook Pro itself. The codes... Everything inside the Mac are all systematic. Apple produced good products and I always trust Apple. Thanks to Apple for the excellent service! :)

Back to the topic.

Before heading back...

I got a bag for myself. Soft leather. It's a Union Jack. It looks like a Birkin. Hah! Actually, I don't want to purchase it after seeing it for a few times. But YenYen thrown it into the basket and asked me to purchase it since the staff is going to give me a good price. Besides, the staff was so funny. He said "You will get 3 guys chasing after you with this beautiful bag." I was like WTH? Those guys are chasing after the bag or me? Haha! Funny people. In the end, I purchased it. Not because of the reason he told me! Hahaha! Who the hell will believe it!? Because it's really beautiful...

Me and LeeTeng, with all the shopping bags in front of us. Not mine of course. Hah!

We headed home at 8.46pm. Chit-chat all the way home. Talked about horoscope, people, issues, studies... A lot more. But I learnt something from LeeTeng. We were talking about the interaction between lecture and student. She said, when a student show you his/her work, don't look for mistake first, look for the good one first. Encouragement comes first before criticism. Good one, right? I think it's the same applying to our lives. When something bad occurs, think about the good thing instead of being emo for the bad thing. Appreciate what I have instead of thinking what I don't have. I believe that, when a person embrace and appreciate what he has, what he wants will come to him, without asking. It's all about positive thinking and positive energy. Think about the good one. :)

We reached New Street at around 11pm. Everyone of us was tired and sleepy. Headed back home by taxi and slept for around 13 hours. Hah! We felt so sick on the way back due to the weather. It was so cold, it was negative! Many of my friends' are having very dry skin now. I can see from their face. It's dry and the skin is peeling off. I don't have this problem... The only problem I am having now is I need more sleep. Hah! Yea, that's my day. A very last minute decision.

Class begins on Monday. Play hard! Work hard!

活着

2012-02-01T04:44:00.003Z

睡不着

在想

人只有在辛苦的时候会很认真地去思考和检讨

人只有在辛苦的时候才会成长和看透身边的人

人只有在辛苦的时候才会选择快乐而正面的思想和力量才存在

人只有在辛苦的时候才会觉得自己真正的活过

只有在辛苦的时候痛的时候

才知道我在好好地活着

在呼吸

心脏在跳

没有什么是辛苦的

只要我还好好地活着就是幸福

感谢痛苦让我知道我还很好

相信我的决定我的心我的信仰

感恩

玉琳好好地活着！：）

Simply Happiness

2012-01-31T00:48:00.009Z

I got it!

For my Negotiated Project (collaboration with Adidas Women). It's a 1st. :)

Hope for the best for my Dissertation too...

Have been thinking what to do for my Major Project. Thinking to come out with an illustrated lookbook, which is a fashion diary. I have an idea, which is I would like to publish it in the future. Crazy, right? I always want to produce a book of my illustration. Besides, I am going to do research on few fashion brands to collaborate with. "Be ambitious for the Major Project. It's a 4 months long project..." The lecturer said.

I am thankful and grateful for the compliments from my tutor and also her encouragement, pushing me to further explore on my ability. Gotta work hard and do my best in my studies. The results are my motivation to move forward to achieve my target!

This is my day, simply happiness. An award for my hard work. I hope the same for all of you. Love and joy. :)

New Year Cooking Lesson

2012-01-25T01:09:00.012Z

It's the second day of the Chinese New Year. My friend who is good in cooking, YenYen, conducted a "cooking class" in her hostel. She invited me and LeeTeng to come over. So, we went to her place and enjoyed cooking and eating for the whole day. :)

YenYen cooked this for us as our breakfast. So kind of her! This is roasted sausages rice. It tasted like the dim sum "Loh Mai Kai". Nice!

We had this too. Salad for the sushi. Hehehe...

After we had our breakfast, the lesson begun! Actually, YenYen was the one who was cooking most of the time. Me and LeeTeng sat there to watch first before start making our own. There was actually many things to prepare for the sushi making but I am lazy to explain. Haha!

Me making sushi. Hehehe...

See the rice at the left side? YenYen placed it like this so that seaweed can stick together in the end. Cute, right? I laughed and said it looked like sticking glue tag. And then... Everyone started calling it glue tag. Hahahaha!

The first sushi role.

The sushi roles! Yeah!

We made all these!

And then, we made bacon and salmon rice balls too, which is the main thing to learn today. :)

Me making the rice ball and inserting the salmon.

Completed the rice ball!

Cutting the bacon to cover the rice ball.

After that, we baked the rice balls in the oven with a layer of Korean sauce and BBQ sauce (plus other sauce) on top. You can DIY the sauce according to your preference.

Tadah! The delicious bacon and salmon rice balls! Yeah! Easy steps! Right? This is what YenYen said: Sometimes the food recipe is hard, but make it simple for you. DIY it! :)

Besides, we made dessert too! :)

We got the ingredients from Marks and Spencer.

We added Nutella into the muffin... It's actually my idea! Wahahaha! And it tasted so nice! Oh my God!

And then... Guess what's next? We made ICE-CREAM! Wohoooo!

Cooking the strawberry and raspberry jam. We added some wine! :P

Progressing....

After mixing with strawberry, raspberry, cream, icing and the jam we cooked, we placed it into the fridge. Look! YenYen made a flower pattern on top! She said this is the first time she did this. Oh... We are art people! Art and design on food! :)

This is for us to bring back home, with Haagen-Daaz's ice-cream cup. Hahahaha! Hey, do you believe this? The ice-cream actually tasted nicer than Haagen-Daaz because it's natural!

Yeaaa... Basically this is what I learnt today. Hehehehe... I feel so contented and happy! Thanks to YenYen for conducting this cooking class! I am so grateful! :)

I wanna learn to cook like YenYen! So that my husband and children will be the happiest person on earth. Wahahahaha!

Ok... Before ending this post, just wanna show some stuff. Hehehe...

My new flip-flop from Accessorize. Pretty! Right? :)

Love the details so much! I fell in love with it at first sight! I am wearing it in my room. My feet sweats a lot. The slipper which cover the entire of my feet is not suitable for me. So, I chose to wear flip-flop.

Lastly... I started to practice Yoga since few weeks ago! My friend taught me some and I watched some online tutorial about the yoga practice for beginner. Just some simple one. I need to do some stretching and simple exercises to keep myself healthy since I can't go jogging during this cold weather. Hahaha!

My pink yoga mat from Sports Direct.

And... Outfit for the day:

Top from Dorothy Perkins

Jacket from WeiNee

Scarf from H&M

Tights from Primark

Shoes from Forever 21

That's my day! Hope you guys are enjoying yours too! :)

Chinese New Year Dinner

2012-01-23T03:25:00.007Z

Happy Chinese New Year people!

I am going to freak out all my relatives if I am in Malaysia this year. Hahaha! Even my friends from Malaysia messaged me and asked me "Eleen, what happened to you?!" Hahaha! Anyway, guess what's my mum's reaction? She smiled and said "New trend ah?" And my uncle said "You purposely do this? You should shave all!" Hahaha! My family is actually very open-minded. Hahaha! None of them complain about it. Hehehehe... And yea, my friends said I look good when I shave my hair. They think I should shave more or have very "manly" short hair. It's going to look cool on me. Hahahaha!

Back to the topic...

Me and my friends had our New Year dinner earlier due to they are going to meet up with the lecture on the first day of Chinese New Year. This is hardcore. Hahaha! The lecturer is going to Hong Kong. So, they are going to hand up their next semester proposal earlier than me. *I am still wondering what I should do... Hmmm... Arghhh! Inspiration please!*

This is our Chinese New Year dinner. Guess what? It's all HOMEMADE by my friend, YenYen!!! She is a genius!

"Lou Sang" This is the best one I ever had! Trust me! Because normally people don't like it. But this is nice! The best of all!

Roasted pork! My favourite although it makes me fat. But I don't care! It's Chinese New Year and I am going to eat like a BOSS!

Herbal chicken with alcohol. The soup is delicious!

Japanese tofu with prawn.

Sweet and sour fish.

Fried dumpling.

Fried beehun.

Bak Kut Teh!!! Oh my God! I was thinking about this for the pass few days and YenYen made it! Oh yeah! I am a lucky girl!

Mushroom and vegetable with Oyster sos.

Salmon and bacon rice balls with Korean spicy sos.

Strawberry cheese cake.

Personally love the bottom part of the cake. The biscuits part. Hehehehe... I hope I can do this someday.

And again... YenYen made this Chocolate ice-cream by herself!

The best thing is... She made one for me and LeeTeng to bring home to our hostel! Oh my God she is so nice! I am so touched!

Red wine from Norah. It's from Marks & Spencer. It's not an expensive wine and it tasted nice! I guess I am going to purchase it when I feel like drinking again. You know, sometimes, you stay in the room alone and you just feel like getting tipsy with the Jazz music on. Hoho! I am a person who knows how to enjoy life.

While we were eating, we had fun sharing stories with each other too. Besides, we shared some stuff in our hard disk. Hahaha! Okay... Not those stuff that you are thinking. We actually shared some digital drawing tutorials among each other. Some advertisement videos... All about art and design. Of course, it's fun! Art and design is all about entertaining people. So, we are actually entertaining people and entertaining ourselves all the time. :)

Ronald's hard disks! We shocked when we saw this. This is too much. Hahahaha! And we teased him... Is it all porn? Wahahaha! Of course not... It's all about art, design and photography. It's like a soft copy library.

We had girls talk in YenYen's room too. This is the soft toys which belong to her and other friends. They got it from Selfridges's Kids Department. So cute! By the way, I can shop in the kids department with my size. Hahahaha! This is so cool! My mum laughed at me when I told her about this. But it's true... As long as you are skinny or petite, you can shop in the Kids department store. This save your money. Kids' clothing is cheaper. Hahaha! By the way, the kids' fashion over here is nice!

They are lovely, isn't it? I saw the elephant one in the store too. I feel like getting one. I love elephant!

Not to forget... A group photo before we start eating!

:)

That's all for now... Happy Chinese New Year to all of you! May the year of Dragon brings you good health, prosperity, joy and good fortune! :)

Bravest Thing

2012-01-19T19:07:00.020Z

Stepped into the salon. Asked the barber about the price. Told her the hair style that I want. I sat there. Waited for around 10 mins.

And then... Poooooffff!

I did the bravest thing in my life.

She said "You are so brave darling. Even the local one are not as brave as you." Yea, I am brave. I want to do this at least once in my life time.

The funny thing is, all the barbers in the salon are excited than me. They showed me samples. They gave me their opinions. They praised me... Keep saying that I am brave because not much girls will dare to do this. It takes ages for the hair to grow longer. But I think, why not? To experience this once in a life time. And yea... This hair style suits me well. Getting a lot of compliments around. :)

A snap shot with the barber before leaving the salon. She is really cute. :)

Reached home. Met my flatmate. They said the hair style suits me well and I look really cool with it. They thought it's not going to be nice. But the results are out of expectation. :)

A breakthrough. 2012. I am cool. Ha! :)

ROCK AND ROLL.

I am on top of the world.

Writing in Progress

2012-01-14T17:27:00.006Z

Essay - Critical Visual Journal. Basically is about the progress and exploration through out the whole project.

We are allowed to design our essay in any format we want. Mr Chiu from Graphic Novels likes my illustration. :)

My lousy English.

And then... Cuteness. Made my day.

Thank you Mr Simon Currell, for the encouragement. :)

Uncle said my self-confidence is low recently, especially towards my career, studies and income. Yea, low self-confidence is so not me. STAND UP AND SHINE! I know I can make it!

"Fight and push harder for what you believe in. You'd be surprised, you are much stronger than you think." -Lady Gaga

Till then.

My White Dream

2012-01-12T22:06:00.032Z

Hello! How's life people? I hope you are doing fine.

I was busy completing my dissertation these days. Met the English tutor. Chit-chat. He praised that my English is excellent. Hahahahaha! I guess he compared me with those who are from China mainland and Hong Kong. That's why my English is excellent. My English sucks weh! Hahahaha! Anyway, chatting with the English tutor is great and talking to him is like having a English lesson. The way he explained is fast and clear. I learnt a lot from the conversation. Oh ya... And also, more jobs are coming to me from Marie Claire. One of the staff left and the designers are busy. So, I will need to draw more in the future. I hope so! Something I realized, most of the people work because of money and they are not happy at all. But, I considered as the lucky one. I love my job and yea, I made income. I am grateful for that. At least, I don't wake up everyday for the boring job that I hate. Haha!

Talked to dad this afternoon and I am so surprised that he supports me of continuing my Master course over here. But, I guess it's hard for me. Studying in the UK needs a lot of money. I am really afraid that it will be a problem for me to stay although I hope to continue my studies so much. Holding a Master is always better than holding a Degree. More choices in my career. Anyway, let's just serve it to God and I believe that He will give me the best! :)

People who experienced a hard time in life, especially our parents. They always ask us to study hard. Because they know life is hard without education. The real thing is, life is hard without a valuable paper, a cert which shows your standard and ability. I know some people disagree with me. But, this is the real world. I understand that dad wants the best for me. Uncle wants to give me the best too. Like he said to me when I was a little girl, he always ask me to look at my mum - "Never depends on your husband." He told me that whatever happened to the parents or elders in the family will be a lesson for us (the younger generation). Study hard, do my best, be sincere and I will have a good life.

Anyway, I am planning to buy myself a home after completing my studies in UK. I have a rough idea about the decoration and the interior design. I taught interior design students when I was working in the college. I taught them drawing skills and also some basic color matching. Used to look at some great samples of interior design and also getting know some information (ingredients and prices) from my colleagues. It will be useful for me to design my home in the future. :)

The entrance and the hallway. I want a white door. I love white although it's hard to take care of it. Of course, as a fashion lover, a beautiful shoes rack is a must, for me to place my Jimmy Choo! Hahahaha! Joking. Not to forget to mention, my first and third aunty have very good taste in decorating their home. First aunt who is from Singapore is more to nature and Bohemian style. Third aunty from KL is more to clean, elegant and classic. I love to visit their home. :)

Clean, simple and neat. That's what I love. Wooden floor. (It's expensive. Hah! Good wood is expensive.)

Bed room. I saw this bed in Ikea and it's cheap. Hahahaha! I must get it! If it is still there. And I want them in white! Or else, I don't mind painting it myself. I love DIY. :)

And perhaps... a mini dressing room, attached to my bedroom(?) Oh I love it! :P

Washroom is the most important one. It must be clean! Since I have my own washroom over here, I found out that I am a bit... Erm, people say it in Chinese - 洁癖. I don't know what they call in English ~~and yet my English tutor said my English is excellent.~~ I don't allow a single hair on the floor or whatever stuff in my washroom. Hahaha! I will pick them up immediately, like... Super immediately. I clean my washroom every time after I bath. Horrible. Hahahaha! And also, I don't allow a single dust in my bedroom. I will wipe them off or vacuum immediately. I don't know why and since when I became like this. Hahaha! But I think it's a good thing, to keep my living space clean.

And hopefully, I can do some painting on the tile in the washroom. Create some patterns to make my bathroom interesting. I remember one night when I was a little girl, my 4th uncle asked me to do drawing on his room's wall! Hahaha! I remember I was using red paint and I draw on his room's wall, LIKE A PRO ARTIST! Hahaha! Too bad, I was too young that time and no one take a photo of my drawing. Hahaha! And also, my first uncle asked me to paint on his lamp. So I painted it, with flowers... Hahaha! I wonder he still keeping it. Hmmm... :P

The kitchen, with down light. The kitchen must look comfortable and clean. Oven and microwave is a must! Since I start to love cooking now. Kitchen is very important for me. :)

Of course. Not to forget. I must have my own drawing studio in my home! I hope someday in the future, when I am married and have my own kids, I can work from home. Spend my time cooking, accompanying my kids and also, drawing. :)

An 27-inch iMac, perfect for my digital drawing. Opps! Do you realize that my drawing is on the wall? Hahaha! Yea, I edited it. I will decorate my home with my fashion drawing and sketches. I will print them on the canvas. Many of the places, including my uni offer this kind of service. It's beautiful, isn't it? :)

And also... My dream car! Buahahahaha! The mighty Mazda2 Sedan! Wohohohohoho! *evil laugh*
The car looks better in live compare to the photo.

Mazda 2 Hatchback.

Mazda 2 Sedan.

Oh babeeee... * Trying to sound like Russell Peters* I wanna bring you home someday! I pointed it to my uncle when I was with him in Johor, before heading to Singapore. He likes it too and he said it suits me perfectly. Hehehehe... The most important one, affordable. :)

Basically, this is what I wanna have when I am back working. But, who knows I won't go back. Who knows, I might get a job at somewhere else. Hahaha! Life is unpredictable. But, interesting. :)

Knitted hat and inner top from Forever 21

Top from Lence

Tight from Primark

Shoes from Toms

This is the first time in my life... I feel I look skinny. I guess, I am losing weight again(?). I see myself everyday so I won't feel anything. But, the sad thing is, my mum said my face is fat from the webcam. WTH. Mummy, everyone looks fat from the webcam, ok? *Trying to deny it* Hahaha!

Recently, I am doing some simple exercises in my room to keep myself healthy and also eating more fruits. A cup of honey after I wake up from my sleep. Besides, I am trying to sleep earlier and getting up early but I failed most of the time. Wahahahahaha! iPhone is tempting.

Alright, that's all for this time. Hope that I have more to share next time. Planning what to do for my next upcoming project, the big one - Major Project. Squeezing my mind...

Currently listening to...

OK! Back to work!

Bye! *Hugs*

Inspiration

2012-01-08T03:19:00.009Z

Do you know writing diary is one of my habit? If you are my close friend, you will definitely know about it. :)

My diary since August 2009. I brought it everywhere I go. It's 2+ years old and I am going to finish it very soon. My writing is very small and tidy. I can write up to 30 paragraphs per page! That's why, I can use a diary for a long time. :)

I am person who is weak in managing my emotion. 3 years ago, I was a girl with very bad temper. But, after reading some books about mental healing which introduced by my uncle and also my own determination. I changed. I am now better in managing my emotion and also think for other people (at least better than before). Of course, I am not perfect but I am learning all the time. :)

Just a few pages of my diary that I want to share with you.

I got all these from magazines that I have read. I found them useful to my self development so I sticked it in my diary. I read them when I need to calm down or I am free. Just random.

I hope I inspire you peeps. Have a happy day! :)

Love and joy.

The Ferris Wheel

2012-01-06T16:17:00.004Z

Last night, I met grandma in my dream. We went out by grandpa's old Benz.

I asked her where she wanna go. She said up to me.

So I brought her to see the Ferris Wheel,

The London Eye. :)

2012 New Year London Trip Day 2

2012-01-04T13:03:00.000Z

The next day, guess what time all of us woke up? 11.30am! Hahahaha! These are some photos that I grabbed from the hostel owner's website and this is the place we spent our night. Trust me, it's very comfortable and more beautiful than the photos. I can't find the photo of the living room and it's really really nice!

I love this scene so much! Personally feel that the hostel owner has good taste in decorating her house. Very vintage and cozy. Love the color that she selected to paint her house. Very "London" style. Hahaha...

The kitchen is small. In future, I wanna have a big kitchen. That will make me wanna stay in kitchen cooking. Hehehehe... I bet all the girls love big kitchen! :P

Our breakfast. Made by Isabel and Eileen! Hahaha! We all were like shocked seeing this! The owner said we can eat anything which is in the fridge. So, my friends finished all the bread. LOL!

Taken this photo before leaving. It's a nice place to stay. :)

Saw the dustbins on the way walking to the underground station. This is so cool! I love the way western people appreciate art and design. You know, in eastern countries, people appreciate professionals like doctor, engineer, lawyer... People will think you are stupid in studies if you tell people that you are studying art and design. So "racist". But I wonder why people still love designer's brand since they think we are stupid. Hahaha! In western countries, if you tell people that you are an artist or designer, they will be like "Wow!". Because artist and designer's jobs are to create something new. That's why they appreciate it, I guess...

We met another friend at the National Art Gallery, Ronald from Indonesia, who was teaching in Lim Kok Wing University in Cyberjaya. He brought us to the Oxford street to look around. This is me at the underground station, Oxford Circus. Oxford street is the nicest street I ever seen! Anyone coming to London? I will bring you there! Oh! By the way, make sure your wallet is thick! :P

Disney store is the first stop! I will bring my kids here someday!!! The most awesome place for kids! (Including M&M's World).

The Minnie mouse! I love her so much!

The main point is... It's full of diamonds! So "bling bling"! Oh my God!

And also my favorite princess - The Sleeping Beauty! Because she is the princess in pink... Hahahaha!

Woody from Toy's Story and me! I watched Toy Story on the way flying from Singapore to UK. Hahaha!

Look! The uniform of Spiderman! Muscles are included! Wahahaha!

And also... Not to miss out the coolest captain on earth - Captain Jack Sparrow!

The soft toys tower... Awwww... Kids nowadays are happy.

Me and the Lady, the character from the famous movie of Disney, called "Lady and the Tramp". It's a very romantic movie... You should watch it if you haven't do so.

There is a famous scene, which both of them eat the same plate of spaghetti and they kissed each other on the end. Very classic and romantic!

Another character from the Toy's Story. The thing which amazed me the most is the workers of the Disney store are really professional. They even introduced the characters to you if you don't know about it. And guess what? This pink color character has strawberry smell! Hahahaha! So cute!

The dolls of Disney Princess. The quality is good! Because their faces and skin tone are not the same. LOL!

At the Disney store with the Rapunzel Princess from the movie "Tangled". She is playful and pretty In the end, she got short hair, the coolest short hair between Disney Princess.

A random street in London. Somewhere nearby Oxford street and Regent street. Very beautiful.

London city. It's raining...

This is cool! I followed this guy for some distance just to capture his photos. Hahahaha!

Hamleys. The biggest toy store on earth! We will visit here next time with my friends.

The taxi in London. Cool!

Regent street.

Beautiful! Isn't it!? :)

After walking for a few hours, we are tired. So, we decided to go back to China Town to have the famous Japanese food, a restaurant called Misato. It's famous because it's nice, big and the most important one... It's cheap. Hahaha! We reached Misato but it's closed. So sad... We waited for a few minutes because we thought it might open again due to the light in the shop is on. My friend called me and told me that Misato is not opening since morning. At the same time, we met an Taiwanese outside the restaurant who wants to have Misato too. We talked and in the end made friend. Hahaha! We decided to have dinner together at the other restaurant, called Four seasons which located just a few blocks from Misato.

She is Patty Huang, from Taiwan, studying in Manchester, majoring in Fashion Retailing. She is 26 and she studied English course in United States before. She visited many countries before and even went bag pack. That's really cool!

Roasted duck. Best one I ever had! Patty said she had it in Hong Kong and London one still the best! Hahaha!

"Cai Xing".

Spicy steam fish. Awesome one!

Besides, we discussed about the coins in UK too. The coins of UK can form into a logo. Look!

You can read more about it over HERE.

Me and Patty had the £1 coin. I will try to collect all the coins and form the shield. Hehehehe...

Ronald is showing us his video of the 2012 New Year countdown. Besides, we even show each other our works and explained what we are doing and studying. Who knows we might become business partner in the future! Right? Besides making friends, we are looking for business opportunities. Sounds so pro man! I feel I am a adult now! Hahahahaha!

After having our meal, we walked around and we will need to go to the underground station to catch our train back to Birmingham soon.

A luggage that I saw at a random store. So nice!

Besides, I played with the coin machine beside the street too. Hahahaha! This is the video. Have fun viewing! :P

Tadah! This is my coin! Hehehehe! You just need to insert 1 penny and another £1, and the machine will compress you 1 penny become this. Hehehe...

Some views of London city.

And yea... I met my favorite species of dog - German Sheperd! He is so handsome! :P

Patty and me on the street. I got myself a spec for £5 and now both of us look the same. Hahaha!

On the way to the underground station... a caricature stall.

Cinema. So nice!

Taken this photo before we say good bye to each other. Patty welcome us to Manchester and I will surely drop her a message when I am going to visit Manchester in the future. :)

Things I got from my London trip. I got these from the National Art Gallery. Surprisingly, I didn't go shopping for cloths. I would like to bring back some stuff which represent London. :)

Got this for £5.

1.5 m long booklet. It's a series of illustration, all about the famous places in London. I bought this because I think it will be a good reference for my future projects. :)

Got this book too! I am so kiddy... Hahaha! But I don't care! It's a POP-UP book of London! :D

LOOK!!! Cool right!!! Well, I guess some of you will say "Oh my God! Why you bought kids' stuff!?" Nah... For me, it's not kids' stuff. It's art and creativity! I appreciate the designer's effort and I think it's a good reference for me. Who knows I might need to work on this stuff in future. By the way, it's also for my future kids. Wahahahahahaha! Ignore me. I am bored.

There are a lot of haunted stories in the book!

And... This is the coolest one of all! The London bridge!

You can flip up the bridge to let the ship sail across. Hahahaha! Super cool! I am going to bring this to show WeiNee, my colleague from Graphic and Advertising Department when I am back in Malaysia. She is teaching student to do pop-up for the foundation course. This will be a good reference and sample for her and students. :)

The shopping bag. There is a exhibition of Leornado Da Vinci at the National Art Gallery now. My friend saw the famous painting - The Last Supper! Oh my God! When I wanted to go there, the security said the section is closed. Sigh... I will surely pay a visit soon!

Me and Eileen got back to Birmingham around 12am and we took a bus back to our accommodation. I got a very awesome London trip. Going to visit London again soon! It's an awesome place! I think I will get familiar to London after a few more times traveling. So, anyone coming to London next time, maybe I can show you guys around? :P

Before I end this post, this is the official video of the 2012 New Year countdown in London.

Conclusion: Actually, I was thinking not to go London at first when my close friend said that she is not going because she would like to save money and she is not interested in the fireworks. And then I thought, since I am in UK, I must appreciate it and do something different. So, I decided to join this trip to get to know more friends. It's a great experience for me and also a breakthrough for me. Hope that I will be having more exciting trips in the future. And who knows... I might have the chance to travel alone. I am looking forward to it. And I am really thankful for what I am having. :)

Till then, love and peace.

2012 New Year London Trip Day 1

2012-01-03T18:53:00.018Z

Good day people! It's time to blog about my first trip to London! It's going to be a long post so I will need your patience. :)

This is the first time I went travel without my close friends but with a bunch of new friends and I don't even know them yet. Hahaha! Such a brave girl I am. I departed from Birmingham Moor Street station with Eileen, my new friend from Palembang, Indonesia.

This is the view of the Bull Ring at Birmingham. It's 5.45am. There is no one on the street. Normally, it's crowded.

Arrived at Moor Street station. Eileen is getting our train tickets from the ticket machine which we bought online.

Me at the train station... We took the earliest train.

My train tickets. You know? I collected every train tickets since I came to UK. It's going to be my precious memory. :)

We reached the Marylebone station in London. Then, we took the underground to the city centre of London.

After we reached London, the first place Eileen brought me to is the Horse Guard.

It's a very beautiful place. My main purpose of traveling to London is actually sight-seeing but not shopping. I love walking around to see the scenery and observe people, especially the fashion. Hahaha!

Me at the Horse Guard.

After visiting the Horse Guard, we went to a park which located near Buckingham Palace.

Guess what? The park is so nice and there are so many ducks and squirrels around! The squirrels are friendly, they will pass by you and also look at you... So cute! Here I am, tackling a squirrel. Hehehe...

The Diana Princess of Wales Memoral Walk.

There is a dog, interested in the squirrels. Keep following them... Hahaha! Everyone in the park are looking at the dog. Natural creatures are so beautiful...

And then, we reached the Buckingham Palace. Most days at 11.30am, we can watch the changing of the guard at the gates. Too bad, we reach the place early at 10am, so we have to miss the ceremony in order to meet the other friends at the city centre. But, never mind, I always have the chance to watch it again! :)

There are different guards, recognized by their hat.

Me outside the Buckingham Palace.

The guard. Guess what Eileen said when she saw this? "Boring job." I laughed like hell that time. Hahahahaha!

Eileen and me at Buckingham Palace.

Remember this road? We watched in on TV during the wedding of Prince William and Kate on April 2011.

The palace is the official London residence of Queen Elizabeth II. If the Queen is in the residence, the flag is on top of the palace will be the Royal Standard. The Union Jack flag is flown when the Queen is away from home.

The big gate of Buckingham Palace. Very elegant and beautiful.

The women police are riding horses. Beautiful.

We passed by the Horse Guard again after visiting the Buckingham Palace when we are on the way to the city centre.

I took a picture with the Horse Guard too. It's in my iPhone. Lazy to upload. Haha!

After that, we went to walk around in the city centre and visited some stores...

Saw this car in a store. So nice! I hope I can bring it home!

Bag with Union Jack... I like the right one so much! But too bad, I didn't buy that in the end. It's £30!

The other bags...

The quality is good too...

After that, we visited the M&M's World, near by the China Town.

The M&M's World is crazy man!!! Perhaps, you can't feel it from the photo... Hahaha! But if you guys are coming to UK, make sure you pay a visit! :)

The interior of M&M's World.

Me with the M&M's World soft toys.

Look!!! The colorful chocolates!!!

The color chats of the chocolates. So cool! :)

Now only I realized that the green one is a girl. Hahahaha!

After looking around, we went to the China Town to have lunch. We met Eileen's friends over there.

This is the China Town in London. In the end, we went to have lunch in the other place called Bali-Bali to have Indonesia foods because her friend wants to have it.

After lunch, we took the underground train to Notting Hill to visit the biggest shopping mall in UK, Westfield. They went shopping and I just walked around.

There... Eileen is helping me to carry my luggage. I have carried it for the whole day. So kind of her!

The interior of the shopping mall. Beautiful.

After walking around, I am so freaking tired but the day just started! It's the 2012 New Year Countdown! We departed to the hostel to drop out stuff and then rushed to the Westminster Bridge to watch the fireworks.

Isabel from Taiwan, me and Eileen. They both are taking music course (majoring in Piano) in Birmingham City University.

Us, waiting for the countdown. 5 hours long wait and it's raining!

The big bunch of speaker. Spot the helicopter? We are LIVE on BBC! The whole world is watching us! Wowwww! Feel so blessed to be in London on 2012. The olympic game will be in London this year and UK will be happening this year. I chose the right time to study in UK. Hahaha! :P

Isabel wants to pee. LOL. So, I accompanied her to the toilet. The toilet queue are sooooo long man! Men and Women are sharing toilet! OMG! I can't believe! The "toilet tour" took around 1 and a half hour. The longest toilet tour I ever had! Hahahaha!

There is a couple kissing each other for like around 10-15 minutes to each other during the queue. They kissed like nobody's business. Culture shock but... Sweet. :)

There goes the countdown started... We waited for 5 hours! No kidding! F-I-V-E freaking hours standing! My stamina is good. LOL!

The London Eye is changing colors. Beautiful!

The last 5 minutes of 2011 on the Big Ben.

You know, we were standing near to the big bunch of speaker (on Westminster Bridge). The music was loud and all the people are drinking and partying. Anyway, the main point is, the Indian are good in expressing their emotion by dancing, especially when the DJ played this song - "Why This Kolaveri Di". Everyone is so high. Hahaha! And now... The song stucks in my head. Oh my God! I downloaded the song and keep listening to it. Nice weh! Wahaha!

Here again, the video of 2012 New Year countdown! Of course, my view is not so nice as the reporters one. Hehehe...

So, after finished countdown. We went home by walking... Because all the public transportation are unavailable at the area.

People in the hotel are waving to the people on the street. Hahaha! Keep screaming "Happy New Year". Lol! This is so happening! Crazy indeed.

On the way home. Crowded. The party never ends.

Yea... We got back to our hostel, spent more than 1 hour walking home. Bathed and then slept. I am so so so tired because I only slept for 2 hours last night due to I am over-excited. Hahahaha! Like a kid. :)

What I gained from the countdown:

Lesson number one: You must wear thick enough, bring along your gloves and scarf. Damn. I didn't bring those and I felt so cold. And one more, umbrella. It's a must!

Lesson number two: Bring "tikar" and also blanket. Wahahahaha! Sounds crazy right? Imagine you have to stand for 5 hours. You better bring something which allows you to sit. LOL.

Lesson number three: Food and BEER!!! It keeps you warm and also makes you high, especially with you friends.

Lesson number four: Wear a plastic or rubber or leather boots or shoes like me. Don't ever wear your favorite pair of canvas shoes! You will never know it's going to rain or you might step on some glasses or rubbish or step by other people. It's crowded and no people will care about your Nike or Adidas or Timberland, Jimmy Choo or even your Christian Louboution. Wear a pair of lousy shoes. Thank God I didn't wear my Toms! Because I was wondering should I wear my Toms on the morning. Thank God I choose my leather boots. Haha! :P

Ok, I wish I could have my next countdown with my love one so much... You know who. Haha! (-.-)
Celebrating countdown with a bunch of new friends is a bit weird. I will spend with my beloved people next time... Hopefully.

Alright, that's all for now. Stay tune for the post about day 2! :)

2012 New Year Countdown in London

2012-01-02T23:55:00.014Z

Hello everyone! I had the first countdown in my life! It's 2012 countdown in my dream land - London City!

Enjoy the video and I will try to blog about my trip soon. There are so many photos to manage and so many stories to share. Made new friends everywhere, awesome people, even just a few minutes outside a restaurant.

Singing and dancing, partying for 5 hours while waiting for the fireworks. My friend wants to pee and we had a 1 hour and 30 minutes "toilet tour" due to there are too many people. Great experience and culture shocks. Awesome. Everything is just perfect.

I am so blessed to be in London on 2012, as a witness of one of the most historical moment!
Stay tune. :)

The End

2011-12-30T22:22:00.002Z

This would probably be my last post of year 2011. The New Year will be a memorable one for me, and yet, many decisions to make.

Got my Railcard after one day applying it online. Efficient. I like. The Railcard allows you to travel all over UK with cheaper transportation price. I got it with my NUS card, with discount for this Railcard. Good deal. And yeah, traveling around UK and the EU countries will be one of my 2012 targets.

An eyebrow kit and my first lipstick in my life. A symbol of becoming a true woman? Haha. Lip gloss is too sticky. Lipstick would be perfect. I choose natural colors. Stick to light make up all the time. Love being natural.

Another to do list on 2012, which I think I suppose to do it all the time. Taking good care of myself. Physically and mentally. Be a good girl, treat everyone with a true heart. Appreciate what I am having and believe that God will bring me what's best for me.

Most important one, turn away from what annoys me or make me feel uncomfortable. Don't push it away. Don't ignore it. Open my heart. Let it come and let it go. It's hard. Very very hard. I know. Have faith.

Don't expect anything from other people but expect something from myself. What I give to other people returns to me as well. Give, with love.

New Year, my biggest wish would be, may the good health be the faithful companion of my family, my friends and all the people I love and love me as well. May all of them surrounded by good times and laughters always. I love seeing them smiling. Sometimes, I just lay on bed and made up scenes in my mind, imagine them having good times and I smiled too.

It has been a long time since the last time I visit a temple. I believe that as long as we are sincere, no matter where we are, God will hear our prayers. Sing the Heart Sutra every night before I go to sleep since I got back from my grandma's funeral. It did helped in making me feel peace and calm and I will continue doing it. I believe that it's grandma who brought The Heart Sutra for me. Far from home, but my heart is always with my family, my friends and the people I love the most. Pray for them, send my blessings, all the time. Sincerely.

In the year 2012. Promise myself to grow up physically and mentally. People might leave me but keep smiling and treat everything with a positive attitude. Work hard. People will see my effort and my sincerity. Seriously, live my life and be happy.

An early Happy New Year to you! Cheers! Hope you have a great one too.

The next post will be on 2012, about another dream comes true. :)

Boxing for Boxing Day

2011-12-27T14:39:00.002Z

After Christmas, it's Boxing Day (26/12), Which means it's the biggest sales of the year! Early morning, dressed up and headed to the Bull Ring to meet up with my friends. I met this little fellow again at the car park of my flat. See how fat and cute she is!

She is bermanja-manja with me... Hehehe...

This is Bull Ring shopping mall, right outside Debenhams. The mall is full of people! It's sales everywhere. Guess what? The fragrances are selling fast. All the people is buying fragrances like buying mineral water, like it's free. All the fragrances are top brands, such as Juicy Couture, Marc Jacobs, Chloe, Gucci and many more. Almost all the racks are empty! I never seen this before. This is totally crazy. Malaysia's sales are nothing. Hahaha!

People are queueing up outside Lipsy London, waiting for their turn to shop inside the store.

Besides, we walked around at the Selfridges too.

This is the part which selling liqueur. They have different types of liqueur. You can purchase a bottle and come here to refill it anytime when you finish your liqueur. Of course, you will need to pay. Haha!

They have different shapes of bottles and different types of liqueur. So pretty!

The candy Bull of Bull Ring, full of candy colors! So cute! I bet the kids love it!

They are selling different types of candy and they even have insect candy. This is so disgusting! Ishhh!

After walking around, we felt so tired and we went to have lunch in a restaurant called "Eat".

I had TomYam prawn! It tasted not bad. Malaysia's food still the best!

I was like freaking tired on that day. Have no mood for the big sales. My friend got herself a Cath Kidston bag. Miracle: I got nothing for myself! Wooo! I am saving up for my New Year trip! But, I managed to get something for my Siri. Hohoho!

I got this casing for half price! It only cost me £5!

I love the flower prints of the casing and the names of some places that I wish I could visit someday. Besides, the design is covering every part of the phone.

Feeling so tired these few days. Keep going out for the pass 3 days and now, it's time to focus on my dissertation!

By the way, a nice song to share... Honestly, I am not a Twilight lover, but this song touched me.

Yeah, I have loved You for a thousand years, and I will love you for a thousand more... So true. :)

Last night, lying on bed, thinking about something about forgiving. I feel, it's so hard to forgive when it comes to someone or something which I really care. Maybe because I mind and I care, that's why it's hard, right? People said forgive and forget. I guess, forgive is easy, but forget is hard, almost impossible. Even though we forgive, we will still remember about it. Like a reminder, reminding ourselves not to do the same mistake again. And I think, if I can't forgive someone or something, why not I forgive myself? Forgiving is good. It's something that I am learning now. Not forgiving other people, but forgiving myself and let the feeling go. I believe that, when I forgive myself, the other thing doesn't matter anymore. I choose the happy path and I believe that no matter how I far I am from the right track, my faith will always bring me back. I always listen to my heart because I believe it. Just a random thought to share. :)

Well, do you guys have any plan for the New Year? Party? Dinner? Mine will be interesting and unforgettable this year! Stay tune! :P

Till then, love and peace.

The Awesome Christmas Dinner

2011-12-25T23:59:00.002Z

Hello peeps! How is your Christmas? Have fun?

I had mine with my friends this year and I had the most awesome food on earth! My friend, YenYen cooked all these by herself. Guess what? Including the ice-cream! We were all like "Oh My God!" She is so brilliant!

Mushroom with mash potato and prawn topping.

This is the best mash potato that I ever had! Cheese topping and it tasted so so so nice!

Jelly fish!

Carrot and broccoli!

Mushroom, cheese and prawn. Have to eat it all together but not separately. It tasted nice anyway.

The Lala! Hoho... My all time favorite seafood.

The spaghetti. We even "dabao" it after we finished the party. Hoho!

"Shao Rou". Guess what? YenYen baked this by herself in the hostel kitchen! She is so super brilliant!

"Shao Rou" with garlic sauce.

Salmon!!! Love this so much!!! I feel like kissing all the Salmon. LOL!

It's Christmas! Of course, we did not miss out the Turkey! YenYen said she baked it for 4 hours!

After all the main courses, we had desserts too!

Peach with Longan.

Ice-cream, made by YenYen! Nice! Right? We were all screaming when we saw this in the fridge! :P

Cake, made by YenYen and Jenny.

All the foods we had that night!

Lastly... We had chit-chat session. Making fun and jokes. Sharing some stories among each other until the late night. Telling ghost stories... Hahaha!

The group photos! Wohoooo! The taxi was downstair waiting for us. So, we had a very quick shot before saying goodbye.

This is the best dinner I had in UK! Appreciate it so much! I am happy girl with a tummy full of nice foods! :)))

Till then, love and joy for Christmas.

Christmas Eve at Stratford Shakespeare

2011-12-24T23:59:00.000Z

Hello everyone? How's your Christmas eve? I celebrated it with my friends at Stratford upon Avon, which is the birth place of William Shakespeare. We departed at 9.30am and the journey took us about 30 minutes. We reached the place on time and it's really a beautiful small town.

This is a very cute restaurant, named Moo-Moo's. They served cakes and chocolates.

It's me outside the restaurant. Love it so much! :)

Before visiting the target place. We walked around the town and visited the stores in town.

Guys! Look! Guess what's this?! It's the magic wands from the famous movie, Harry Potter! Hahahaha! This is so damn cool weh! I almost got myself one! Then I will do magic! Hahahaha!

Awww... The happy Santa. :P

I love all these angels. They are simply beautiful. As you can see, different colors give different feelings. Which one do you like? :)

Mistletoe Kisses... How I wish I can have one!

Took this photo outside of the store. The town is full of Christmas decoration. Very warm and beautiful.

There is a teddy shop in town. I got my photo with the huge teddy. So cute! I gotta get myself a Teddy Bear when I visit the Sherlock Homes Museum in London!

After walking around for a while, we were hungry. We dropped by at a restaurant to have our breakfast.

The nicest English breakfast that I ever had in UK. It's not expensive too! Out of expectation. :)

Me with my breakfast. Everyone was busy taking photo. Hehehe...

After the breakfast, we went to the main attraction of the town - the birth place of William Shakespeare. I can't believe we actually stepped into his house! Gosh!

Outside the house. Very antique. Very beautiful place... We are going to visit here again on next year Spring Summer to see different scenery, especially the garden. The ticket is valid for 12 months, which is 1 year. So, we can visit here anytime again. :)

Something interesting is. During the old times, having a bed at home is a symbol of wealthy. So, some of the people will purposely place the bed near the window to show off to the outsiders. Haha! Same with current society, the rich people will park their sports car, like Ferrari, Lamborghini, and Bugatti beside the road. Haha!

Besides, we are lucky enough to have a people who explained around the house for us. He told us that green color represent the love of family and red color will chase away the evil spirit. I guess this is why English people likes to use green and red(?) Hehe... Even the Christmas is full of green and red. For designer like me, red and green are complementary colors, which means they are opposite each other in the color wheel. So, when we put green and red together, it creates contrast and the colors catch people's eyes easily. Gotta be careful when applying colors because it plays an important role. :)

Alright, back to the topic...

William Shakespeare came from a very very very wealthy family. This is the structure of his home. Besides, he bought another home with 26 rooms and huge garden (which we visited later) with £125. It's a huge amount during that time.

In the Shakespeare's bedroom. The wall painting is simply awesome! I am gonna have this in my home in the future and I am going to design it by myself. Designing my home is one of my dream! :P

Me at the workshop of William Shakespeare's father. He sold gloves to earn for a living. He was a businessman.

Besides, we visited some other places of Shakespeare too and took so many beautiful photos. Have to thank Ronald for being our tour guide and photographer of the day. I am waiting for him to upload all those beautiful photos on Facebook. Hehehe...

The garden of Shakespeare's home. Super beautiful! Trust me! I feel like coming into another world... It's so romantic and beautiful! I will surely be back on Spring Summer to see all the beautiful flowers blooming in the garden! :)

Me and LeeTeng at the Shakespeare's garden. Love this photo so much! :)

Me! :)))

Again! Me! I told you! The garden is so super pretty!

And... I am a playful girl, just in case you don't know my "true color".

I always known as the "sampat" one among my friends, I mean different groups of friends, Hahaha! So this is it! I am posing like a boss professionally with Ronald's super professional camera! The price of the lens and the camera equals to a HOUSE! I think it's more than hundred thousand Ringgit. Of course, the quality of the photos which is taken by this camera is super awesome! I can't wait to see it on my Facebook. :)

This is another "sampatness" of me. The camera is so heavy man! Yea, I know I am a naughty girl. IT'S IN MY GEN! :P

Alright, before leaving the place, I signed my name on the Guests Book. Yeah, none of my friends sign the book. Only me. Hahahaha!

After that, we went to walk around the town, visited the church and a park nearby... I don't remember whether I see a swan before. But, I guess this is the first time(?)

Swan is huge! I always thought swan is small and it's the same size as the duck. In fact, NO! It's BIG! And yeah, they are beautiful... They reminds me of my favorite fairy tale when I was a little girl - The Swan Princess. :)

Lovely sunset... :)

At the nearby church. Very antique door...

Yeah... I even climbed up to the tree! It's like a super easy job to me. Wahahaha! This is why my uncle called me a monkey since I was a little girl. :\

After that, Ronald went to pray in the church and we wondered around the town for a few hours. The weather is cold and we had tea in Starbucks Coffee. Actually, my friends had it, not me. Hahaha! I just sat there, tapping my iPhone and enjoyed the warm indoor environment. It's really super cold out there. Imagine, you still feel super cold even you are wearing more than 4 layers of cloths including the winter jacket! Argh! Anyway, I heard that the weather is below -50 in Russia and a lot of people died due to the cold weather... Sigh.

Anyway, we had our dinner before heading back to Birmingham. I had Italian Vegetable Risotto. Very nice! I should learn to cook this too! Hehehehe... We are planning to go back for the Chinese Buffet. It only cost £7 for the lunch buffet, super cheap and delicious! Yeah, should visit there again.

Oh yeah! Not to forget. The outfit of the day:

Jacket from H&M *got it with 50% offer*

Bag from Dorothy Perkins

Tights from Primark

Boots from Dorothy Perkins *got it with 50% offer too*

On the way home, we played game on the train. A childish one but it's funny. We have a video. Just keep it private because it's really a lame game. Hahaha! And yeah, chit-chat session, about marketing psychology (We are so professional. Hahaha! But yea, I learnt something from this conversation with them.) and also relationships. I just keep quiet and keep laughing all the way. Haha! Ronald shared the most. He told us that he keep dating with the girls which shared a same horoscope and he claimed that it's horrible. Well, he had 5 ex-girlfriends and they are all sharing the same horoscope! I was like laughing so loud when he told us about this. I guess he is being cursed(?) Hahahaha! Hmmm... I will not mention about what's that horoscope. But, if you are interested, you may ask me about it. Wahahahaha! Shh shhh... :P

Besides, guess what? We even had palm reading on the train! Hahahahaha! Honestly, I quite believe in palm reading. You can see a person's personality and destiny from his/her palm. My friend knows a little bit, just a little bit in palm reading. He read my palm and what he said is same as the fortune teller told me. Maybe, that's really my destiny? Hahaha!

I had a very enjoyable day with my friends. I feel so contented and happy. Feeling so much better and I am now recharge with positivity again! What a good life! Back from this trip, heard so many stories and sharing from my friends. Realized something in life. I am grateful with my life, especially my social circle. All the people that I met are awesome, kind and simple. Some of the people have very complicated social life, they flirted everywhere (but they claimed that they are just being friendly, WTH?! ~~such a bitch~~). I mean, what's the point? They are hurting people around them, especially those who love them. That's just not my kind. I prefer a "clean and clear" relationship among my social circle. I want everything to be simple and easy. Yeah... That's right. I would rather spend more time on improving my inner value, hanging out with good friends, drawing and... Cooking. Hahahahaha! Owh yeah! Forgot to tell you that cooking is my new interest now! :)

Before I end this post, I had a quote of the day to share... It's a quote from my friend and this funny quote made us laughed all the way from Stratford back to Birmingham:

"Don't come back to me if you have been jailbreak, make sure I am the one who unlock you."

Ehem! For me, it's true. You may ask me if you don't get it. :)

View more of my photos on my Facebook! :)

Alright, that's all for today. I am having a Christmas dinner with my friends tomorrow. I can't wait! There will be a lot of nice foods! Stay tune for my next post! :)

Happy Christmas! Love and joy!

Turn Me Upside Down

2011-12-21T15:08:00.007Z

Owhhh wow babeh! Look who's here! Finally I got my parcel - A Vintage Union Jack which I bought from Amazon UK! It only cost me RM20! Amazon has whatever you want with cheaper price.

My Siri's region is UK. I bought her over here. So, I dressed her up with Union Jack! :)

Awww she is so lovely!

The Union Jack turned my mood upside down! Had enough emo for the pass few days! It's time to get back to "normal"! A happy-go-lucky Eleen!

I am going for a short trip on 24th! Christmas party on 25th! 26th will be the Boxing Day shopping! And perhaps New Year celebration at London?

I can't wait! Stay tune for my next post! :)

B+

2011-12-19T21:51:00.005Z

Woke up today with a blur mood. I guess I have to get back to the normal routine, can't have afternoon nap anymore. Because insomnia will only bring me negativity. And also, it's unhealthy. :)

Have a "self-evaluation session" today. Besides getting back to a normal routine, I think I have to be positive too. Thanks for the messages from uncle today. He didn't know what's happening but what he told me cheer me up. It's about my aunt played "Angry Bird" with his phone until 4am on yesterday and about the little cute boy who is living beside their house. I miss them so much... I had a happy time when I was in Singapore. I felt no stress and I enjoyed every moment with them over there. I decided to do some meditation start from today. I have stop doing it for quite sometimes already. It helps me a lot in my personality and also improving my inner value.

One more thing, me and my friends have been discussing about getting a job in UK. I have no idea whether it works because it's really really hard to get a job over here with the current economy situation. And also, most of the companies refuse to hire foreigners. Honestly, I don't really know where to go. Haha! Thinking back of last time, how I get a job in The One Academy. For me, I always believe that God has a plan for me. Sometimes, I just have to follow the flow in life and accept what God has given to me. We don't know what is going to happen next, right? Life is unpredictable. Planning too much will only bring ourselves stress. Of course, working in a foreign land would be a good experience for me. But, if I don't get the chance, I believe that something better is waiting for me at home. It's a good thing to stay at home, as I can always spend my time with my loved ones...

Since I came back to work in Penang, I can actually feel my parents are getting older. Of course, not only my parents... And also all the other elders. Their life experiences made me realized that I am blessed and lucky. I can't waste my time having negative thoughts.

Yea, sometimes, people have to be emo for a while in order to re-charge themselves and be positive again to start a new journey in life. There are always rainbows after the rain. I truly believe that I will find my way back to positivity because it's in my blood. I am B+, so it's "Be Positive"! :)

2011 is coming to an end soon. Be happy always and prepare for the coming new year 2012.

On the way home to M'sia on October 2011.

Last year's today, I was new in The One Academy Penang. Today, I am in UK furthering studies and experiencing a new life. Next year, where will I be? The future is unpredictable.

Wishing everyone a happy day. Be positive! Love and joy.

Another Insomnia

2011-12-18T04:03:00.000Z

抱着热水袋，躺在床上，应该是下午的时候睡多了所以晚上睡不着。躺着躺着，眼泪就不由自主地流。最近发生了一些事情，都怪不得任何人，也加上之前压抑在心中的一些心事，无形中变成了很大的压力。

总觉得身边没有什么好说话的人。虽然有朋友，但是不是每个朋友都真正了解你，可以和你畅谈南北东西。很多时候，选择自己吞下去，或者躲在被单里大哭，哭过，心情好了，就算了。不得承认，有的时候，大哭比说出来还有效。现在回想起来，大哭真的是我发泄的管道。小的时候，有什么不开心的事情，我也是躲在房里抱着我的娃娃哭的。我还记得我的娃娃是 Hello Kitty 的好朋友，那只浅青色的大眼睛青蛙。而且，好像是伯母从新加坡带来的，不知是谁不要的娃娃。果然很适合和我抱在一起大哭。

以前，很多时候哭的原因是没有和自己的父母和弟妹在一起。每天放学看见同学有爸爸来接，还好命到帮忙拿书包，我羡慕的不得了。有一次，爸爸到学校来看我，我就不舍得让他走，一直要他留到我放学。好几次，他偷偷走到我的课室门旁，暗示我说他要走了，我还是摇头不让他走，不过到最后，我还是点头让他走了。我想，那个时候，我应该已经明白，当一个人要走的时候，我们是留不到的。当然，我没有怪爸爸。我相信，在他的心里，还有我的位置。还有一件最让我印象深刻的事情就是在我二三年级的时候，我出水痘，那个时候是初期，我依旧去上学。爸爸妈妈就一起到学校来看我。我一见到他们，就马上张开双手让他们看刚刚生在我左手上的水痘，是初期，水痘刚冒出来的时候很痛。那个时候，虽然病了，可是我感觉自己最完整。在我心里，我很希望，他们不只会在我生病的时候一起出现，我希望，他们常常都会在我身边。过后，我长大了，活动多了，朋友多了，开始忙了，自然也没去想那么多了。

其实，几年前，我有问过妈妈，如果有一天，爸爸回来了，她还会接受他吗？妈妈说为了家，她当然会。可是现在，我不希望她这么做。我们孩子都长大了，可是妈妈并不老，我其实希望她还会遇到一个疼爱她的人，可以时时刻刻倍半她。:) 我认为，一个不完整的家庭对一个小孩子的伤害其实是很大的。我是很幸运，很多人疼我。但是，不是每个单亲小孩都那么幸运。就算到现在，我童年的阴影其实还在，那种无助和孤单，比恶梦还恐怖。但是，我相信也因为这样，我比很多人还努力，独立和坚强。:)

其实，我自己也搞不懂自己在心情不好些什么。心里就有那种落寞的感觉，就是突然有很多事情和回忆从心的最深处涌了上来。也想起了上个月，有个朋友告诉我，她的前男友要结婚了。虽然她现在也碰上了很疼爱她的人，但是她还是不由自主地伤心了。我当然发挥了我平时的幽默，搞笑，积极和乐观态度来影响她，让她开心起来。实际上，我的心还是揪了一下。换着是我，我会怎样？如果有一天，是我最爱的他要结婚了，可是新娘不是我，我会怎样？想到这里，我不敢想了。连我的心都逃避，何况是我的人。虽然接下来的那一句话，每个人都不会想听，也一定会骂我笨，可是我还是要说⋯

我一定会很想死。

我想，这是当下每个人的感受吧？应该不只是我一个吧？哈哈哈！亏我还笑得出。

是啊，我看起来一副很高傲的样子，实际上我也有累的时候。外表只是一个装饰，一个掩护。累了，还是会希望有人会愿意和我分担。心里总是希望是他。但是我明白，如果我对对方也很重要，对方会留在我的生命里的。听很多人说，女孩子不要作贱自己，人家不喜欢你了就找别人去。我倒觉得这才是在作贱自己，一定要往别人喜欢的方向钻吗？太随便！太没个性了！我就是要坚持于我喜欢的和我所爱的，就算到最后没有结果。至少，走到生命的尽头的时候，我不会后悔。总之，让我淡淡地来，淡淡地离去吧。:)

刚才在午睡的时候，又梦见我骑马了。这是我第二梦见骑马了，不是慢慢走的，是策马奔腾。而且我还骑得还不错呐！哈哈哈哈！我的马是浅棕色的，两眼之间是白色的，四只脚好像也是白色的。这是我在梦里第二次见到它了。我不懂为什么会梦见骑马，很奇怪的梦。

更恐怖的事，我昨天竟然梦见我逃出火灾！起床的时候还很怕，马上用被单把自己包起来。哈哈哈！我实在太有创意，太有冒险精神了！连做梦都很精彩！但愿，我的生活也很精彩⋯

今天在准备午餐的时候看见的，很漂亮，很浪漫的马车，就像童话故事一样⋯ :)

写完了，发泄完了，早上四点了。

心情也好多了！无论发生什么不好的事情，还是要乐观，快乐地面对每一天！ ;)

睡吧，骑马去了⋯

German Market #2

2011-12-16T17:37:00.006Z

Hey yo peeps! It's another new day!

Woke up at 8am. Dolled up myself. Had my breakfast and headed to the German Market. Owh look at my Toms flag behind there! :P

Before the alcohol session, we went to the post office because LeeTeng wanted to post her mum a Birthday card which she made by herself. Such a good girl! After that, we went the 99p shop, all the stuff inside the shop are selling less than £1, which is less than RM5 in Malaysia. Very cheap!

We got ourselves this, hot water bag. You can filled it up with hot water and then "wear a cloth" for it and hug it to keep yourself warm during the cold weather. Cute right? Cause we never have this in Malaysia. I think we will need to hug ice in Malaysia. Haha!

So this is my hot water bag. Pink bag with white knitted cloth. Hehehehe... I saw a lot cute one in other store, they have like teddy bear, rabbit and a lot of different animals but they are too expensive. I think I will hug this little fellow everywhere I go. The weather is getting really cold and I can feel my fingers are freezing when I am not wearing gloves. I can't imagine winter... Am I going to die? Hahahaha!

After walking around, we had our lunch, which is the main purpose we visited the German Market - Hot sausage and Honey Wine!

LeeTeng got the white Honey Wine.

I got the red Honey Wine. It tasted... Sweet. Hahaha... I finished it quite fast. In the end, I got a bit tipsy. Hahahaha! But, I managed to walk back home, in sleepy mood. What a good experience. Hehehe... I guess the western wine has more alcohol(?) Because I won't get tipsy easily back in Malaysia. I finished like 2-3 bottles of red wine during my colleagues' wedding last time and I was still walking around like nothing happened. And I can finish 4-5 big bottles of beer! Woooooo! I miss those old times! But today, I found out that I don't really like alcohol. I still prefer milk, juice and water. I am a baby. Hahaha!

Owh! One more thing to mention. The German actually felt quite suspicious with me. I told them my age and the uncle who is selling the wine said "Aren't you 16 or 17?" Oh my Gosh! I never feel so young! Hahahahaha!

Besides, I tried out the German Market's cookie too. Very nice! Those people who travel to UK on December should come to Birmingham. Because you will get the chance to try out the German's foods and drinks too. Hehehehe...

Walnut flavor. Bought this on yesterday.

Tried this today, the Peanut flavor. Super nice! So...

I got myself another packet of peanut flavor at the other store. Super super yummy! Love it!

LeeTeng's chocolate milk and cream! The cup is cute, isn't it? :)

After that, we went home because the weather is really cold and we couldn't stand it. Just want to stay beside the heater and hide inside the duvet. Do you know? I won't even feel like stepping out from the shower when I am bathing in the morning. Because the shower has hot water and it's so comfortable. Hahahaha! I told my flatmate, which is a local British Indian, named Sophia about this and she said she feel the same. Hahahaha!

Anyway, I got a FREE new printer from HP due to the previous one has region code problem. Hehehe... HP provides good service and the printing quality of the printer is so good. Normally, the color of the printed artwork will look a bit dull compare to the artwork we view on screen. But, HP has no problem with this. :)

Yea, basically this is my day. Planning to visit London on 27th after Christmas but we cancelled our plan due to the weather. The train is getting lesser due to the holiday and new year. Everyone doesn't want to work. Hahaha! So, we will visit London on February with my colleagues when they are in UK. Going to stay there for a few days and do some shopping for my family. Wanna get them some beautiful stuff since I am away for such a long time. Family is the one that we always thought of when we are apart from them. :)

Till then, bye bye people and it's my hibernating time! The weather is cold and all I want to do is SLEEP.

Learnt something on this week: Let go of the unhappy stuff in the past. It will only hold me back from feeling happy and chasing my dreams. Be happy because life is now! :)

Owhhh Noooo

2011-12-14T15:56:00.003Z

It feels so good when you can do whatever you like when you wake up in the morning. I made my first chicken soup. I made one for my friend. Feel love and warm. Giving is the best thing on earth. :)

I am lazy at night.

So I had a "simply" dinner.

Cornrows FAILED.

In the end, LeeTeng braided my hair and we had 2 hours long chat in my room, with my tummy singing.

The Tommy

2011-12-12T22:24:00.009Z

Yooooy people! Finally! I am done! I submitted the Negotiated Project! You know? The presentation was actually a lot of fun. Every students waited at the student lounge or corridor for their turn to present their work. We actually have our time table and we went into the room according to our time slot. That situation was just like the clinic. All the patients are waiting to see the doctor. LOL!

So, since we were waiting. We chatted! Hahaha... The topic was some funny stuff about a lecturer and some students. That lecturer is a mix of French and Chinese. So, he knows what we are talking too if we speak in Mandarin. And we are all talking about the situation in the class. The lecturer showed his students his Karate video in the class. Haha! Guess what one of my friend said to him? "Are you going to do that to me?" because it seems doesn't related to the course. Hahahahaha! And that lecturer actually raised his voice towards his students sometimes so it's quite scary if you are under his team. Anyway, luckily my lecturer is kind. Hahahaha! One more thing, I was stressed out because my tutors didn't ask me any question after the presentation. I was worry... I was afraid that I didn't do good enough. But my friend told me that the lecturer, who is the playful one that I mentioned above. He praised that my illustrations are nice on last Wednesday during the sharing session with juniors! Phew! Relieved! But still, I am worry... First Honor, is it hard? :\ Gotta work even even even harder for the coming Major Project!

You know? It's good to be a Malaysia. Because you can speak and listen to different languages. Haha! Chatted with a few new friends today. Didn't get to know their name but they are really friendly and funny. Before we left, we wished them "Good Luck" because they were still waiting for their turn to present. A happy and contented morning. Get to joke and laugh a lot! Hahaha! The best presentation that I ever hard in my life. Fun and relaxing. Of course, my presentation was good too. I spoke very fast... Because there was only 10 minutes for you to talk about 14 weeks progress. Hahaha! Blah blah blah...

After the presentation, we went for lunch in a Chinese restaurant. We are missing Chinese food a lot! (Especially the Curry Chicken by my mum and the 肉干 and Kuih by his mum! Goshhhh I miss those so much!) The Chinese food of this restaurant is really nice and big! LOL! I will visit there again for sure. Superb!

Look! Full!

四宝饭 - Cha Siew, chicken, duck, pork and egg! Perfect! Very nice! Yummmmmmy! Guess what? Me and LeeTeng shared this and we were feeling so full. Now you can imagine how HUGE it is! Haha!

What's next after filling up our tummy? SHOPPING! Woooo... We have been "suffering" and "stressing" for such a long time and now, it's time to "release" it! Hoho... I got my first Toms shoes in my life! I was looking for the basic but the Botas is more suitable for the coming winter. It's going to be really cool and it's going to snow anytime! I am so excited! The salesman was very kind in giving me opinion. Oh yeah! In UK, if you are not satisfy with the product that you purchase, you can return it within 2 weeks. But in new condition, with the price tag on.

My new Toms! Wohooooo! Tried on the olive color and beige color. Found out that shoes in bright color looks better on girls, like me. Hahaha! It looks boyish but I love it. Classic and a lil vintage. The nicest part of it is, the inside of the shoes are red and the base is leather! Woooo! Perfection!

"With every pair you purchase, Toms will give a pair of new shoes to a child in need. One for One." :)

It's me with my Tommy! Perfectly match with my H&M coat! And hey? Do I look good in short hair? Hahaha! Perhaps, I should cut it someday? :P

Switched from Lancome back to Body Shop. Why? Doesn't want to go for so expensive skin care products for now since I am studying. I will switch back to Lancome when I am earning by myself. Hahahahaha! Or maybe, I will eventually found out that Body Shop is more suitable for my skin? :P Hmmm...

Got myself a necklace. It's London! :)

Some very "England" earrings. Love them! Accessorize is having 3 for 2 sales right now. So I grabbed them! Hehehe!

Of course, got my family some presents too! Shhhh... What's that? Secret! :P

Back to the hostel, I got my parcel! It's a Fashion Illustration book, illustrated by Vic Riches. Her works are simply awesome! I found her works on River Island's fashion booklet. They are impressive! So I decided to buy her book and emailed her for my dissertation interview and research. I emailed a few artists for my research and some of them replied. It's so good to communicate and had some sharing with those awesome people in industry. :)

One day, I will come out with my own book too! :)

Saw a quote from the book by Miss J.Alexander from American's Next Top Modle: "Girls, don't blame the photographer. Blame your parents for bad DNA." Believes in camera.

I was like WTH?! This quote is so freaking hurt. Hahahaha! But it's true for the modeling industry. Same as others, the industry is cruel. Hmmm... Yea, very cruel.

Lastly,

Blowing kisses.... Mwah!!!

My true cacat face. I hate heavy make up.

I am starting to love UK. Maybe I should look for a job over here(?)

I love the weather. I love the fashion. I love the culture. Everything over here is just so... Romantic. But you get emo easily too. LOL!

Alright! Till then, love and peace! :)

Dream Big

2011-12-10T16:05:00.003Z

Still remember that during my last semester in The One Academy, I attended a talk by my principal, Mr Tatsun Hooi. He encouraged us to be ambitious and to dream big. What he said is still fresh in my mind. "Aim for best in asia, aim for best in the world." Yeah, it sound so stressful. But, we only have one life. Make it the best life! I had almost everything I want in my career and studies. What I wish for next?

Hmmm... Of course, a First Honor Degree and also continue my Master over here! I know my uncle loves my very much and working hard for my studies. I am thinking for my siblings too. I am afraid that money will be a problem for me to continue my studies. I believe that dreams do come true if we are sincere. So, pray hard and work hard!

These are some pictures of my sketch book:

My fashion sketches: Studying on David Downton's drawing style.

My fashion sketches: Looked for references and illustrate it by myself. Like it? :)

Negotiated Project submission is on next Monday. I can't wait! Because it's shopping and alcohol session afterwards! Wohooo! I was thinking about the honey wine in the German Market and I wanna get a leather jackets, a pair of slipper and also a pair of TOMS maybe? :P

Got this H&M top for only £2! Another orange top for £4 and a snow white scarf for only £5! I am a happy girl. :)

It's clear that I am so addicted to Instagram recently. Hahaha!

Till then... May all of our wishes come true! *pray hard*

工凡心

2011-12-09T10:00:00.002Z

我无助。

我要挺住。

我过得去的。

害怕会慢慢变习惯。

当我害怕的事情全都发生了，我就什么都不怕了。

A Good Good Life

2011-12-07T10:54:00.005Z

I am blessed with a good good life.

Woke up in the morning. Enjoy the moment rolling in my duvet before waking up to start my new day. That's happiness. :)

Having a small and cozy room. A heater. A comfortable bed. Four yellow romantic lights. A window to watch the stars when I can't fall sleep at night. A Photosmart printer. A Canon G12. An high speed internet line and a Macbook Pro. This is happiness. More than happiness. I am blessed.

Born with a creative mind. Having a pair of hands which can draw whatever I love. Have a pair of good color observation eyes. Seeing and doing what I love most of the time. Moving towards my direction. This is happiness. More than happiness. I am a lucky girl.

Making my hobby as my career. A little success in the industry. Got nominated. Got recognized. Meeting the new and kind people everywhere. Having all the amazing people around me. Helping me, guiding me, pushing me towards the top of the mountain. This is happiness. More than happiness. I am truly blessed.

Have the money to buy food. Have the ability to cook. A mouth to taste nice food. Exploring new food everyday by myself. This is happiness. More than happiness. I am a happy girl.

When the weather gets cold. My feets are warm covering with the home slipper. A true happiness.

Studying in the dream-land. Having a beautiful classroom. Having all the equipment that I need for my projects and assignments. Having a pretty and kind tutor, guiding me, teaching me and encouraging me. This is happiness. A 'colorful' happiness. I am lucky.

Having tan skin. A high forehead. A long nose. Having a healthy and perfect body. Thank you mum and dad. Thank you everyone for taking care of me. Look after me when I am growing up. I am perfectly healthy. I am blessed.

Nice family, a lovely mum, a cute sister, a naughty brother, a uncle aka daddy who called me his BaoBei and loves me more than anything on the earth.

A group of funny and loyal friends. From primary school, from high school, from the Police Cadet, from college, from The One Academy, lectures, colleagues and then friends.

Having a complete heart. Having someone to love in the heart.

What can I ask for more?

I have all the blessings from God. I am truly truly truly blessed. ;)

Appreciate our lives.

Corn & Cornrows

2011-12-05T21:59:00.007Z

Alright, this is gonna be another post about food again! Huhu...

Experimenting on rice and then I came out with this thingy - half rice half porridge. FAILED. But still, nice! Because the rice has the smell of the broccoli... Delicious! It looks so healthy, right? Haha!

Fried mee with prawn! Mix and sos of the fried mee by myself. Oyster sauce with "Lau Gan Ma" chili oil. Max satisfaction!!! I am getting really good at cooking. Wuahaha!

Bought the fish from the market. I am a fish lover but salmon is too expensive. So, go for some cheap fishes. Hehehe...

Sweet corn, Carbonara and salad = FAT. Don't care since the weather is getting cold. I need some fat to keep me warm *Does it sound like an excuse? Cough cough* Sometimes when I eat too much for the lunch, I skip dinner. Hmmm...

One day's dinner. Lazy to cook. So I have "mee sua". Hehehe...

Fish and prawn porridge. ;D

Porridge with salmon! I was in a good mood that day. *Because of salmon. LOL.* So I am making fun with my food. SMILE people! ;D

And today's dinner! Tadah! I made my first honey-roasted chicken! Wooohooo! Guess what? Last night, I can't fall sleep. My mind turns active at the middle of the night. This is so called "Artist Brain". But duh! Whatever! Hahaha! So I was thinking of - How to make roasted chicken. I saw my housemate made it for her boyfriend ~~and someday I want to make it for my hubby too.~~ Hehehehe... So I went to the market to buy some chickens today. Headed home and gave it a try.

Tasted delicious!!! Unbelievable!!! Wuhuuu... But I am gonna "practice" a few more times to make it PERFECT! Hehehehe...

LOL. That's all for this moment. The next thing that I wish to experiment will be Butter chicken or prawn. I remember that I had the best best best butter prawn in Sarawak with him! That was so memorable! The best meal that I ever had in my life! ;')

This was the butter prawn that I had in Sarawak. Super delicious. Wish to have it again... :')

The negotiated project's deadline is approaching. I finished up all the works and now doing more sketches and studying from masters' works. My degree studies are mainly about what am I gonna do in the future. The lecturer is not going to give me any topic or target and I am the one who set the goal for myself. So, I have to plan my own schedule and progress by myself, gotta be 'independent'. Go to the campus only one time per week. Limited time to talk to the lecturer, around 20mins per person due to there will be a lot of people behind me. So I gotta be clear and fast. In conclusion, I spend 50 mins to walk to the campus, around 30mins meeting the lecturer and then another 50 mins walking back to the hostel. Huahahahaha! It's mainly walking exercise. LOL! But I am happy. I guess this is life? Preparing and planning is always more important than the outcome. ;)

So, what I am gonna do after the bloody negotiated project? Shaving is going to cost me over here so I decided to go for CORNROWS! Woooohooooo! Honestly, I never thought about it before. But I see a lot of black women having cornrows over here and they look really cool! So, I am gonna give it a try! My friend promised to do it for me after the presentation! Hehehehe... I am so excited. I will be truly an Avatar. LOL!

Yeah! Row it up like BOA!

I can't wait.

Style that I have been looking for during this Autumn Winter:

Image credit to lookbook.nu
In a nutshell, I need a leather jacket. Haha!

The weather is getting colder now! For people who are having Autumn + Winter now, wear more and remember to apply moisturizer! Drink more water of course! ;)

Shave

2011-12-01T23:33:00.009Z

Have been thinking about shaving my hair. Maybe I should give it a try after I finish "dealing" with the bloody presentation and project.

Picture credit to Forever21 Facebook page.

Cher Llyod.

I tried to get the look. Not bad huh? ;P

Hmmmm... Yea, maybe I should shave, at least once in my life. ;)

Last but not least... Toms is so tempting. I am so in love with the shoes.

I will get them during Spring!

Went to the campus today to find out the printing service thingy. Went to the library, got the pin code, print my commercial board. There are a lot of progress to go through before printing something and thanks to the librarian who guide me through the progress. Went to the photography printing room to talk to the people in charge, went to the IT Center to print my posters. Glad that all the people are kind. They are very generous, patient and answer my every questions. I know it's a very normal thing for you guys. But I learnt something today, which is I am better at working alone. When I am in a group, I tend to depend on other people. But when I am working alone, I learn more and I learn very fast. For example, if my friend accompany me to the campus today. she will be the one who go and find out all the printing services thingy and I will be just a follower. And yea, when I am working alone, I get more inspiration and motivation. I am proud of myself, to be able to solve the problems by myself today. I used to be shy and depend on other people. But slowly... I am not anymore. It's a part of growing up. Maybe, when I am good in handling myself, I will be a good team player? ;)

Christmas is just around the corner. Planning to celebrate it in London. Urghhh! Project first! Get back to work... And, my contract with the Malaysia's Leading Fashion and Lifestyle magazine - Female Magazine, continue! More coming soon!

My aim - to get a 5 digit payment project this year! Possible? Impossible! No, you get it wrong, it's I M Possible! Dream big. Fly high. Breakthrough. That's life.

2012. I can't wait ~~because it's the end of the world~~. It's gonna be a year which I will get my degree, more jobs, more traveling chances (Yea... France, Greece, Italy, Rome... ), growing up, more experience and knowledge, more passion, love and positivity towards life and last but not least, increase my inner value. What's the best thing in life? For me, it's people keep changing, but yet, people still loving each other. ;)

Photo credit to AnnaRina Photography. My favorite shot.

Owh I will run away, I will run away with you... listening to The Corrs - Runaway

Featured

2011-11-29T07:42:00.002Z

6.30am - Bad dream. Woke up because it's too cold. Wanted to switch off the air condition and then realized that I am in UK! Not Malaysia...

7.00am - Got 2 emails from clients. Decided to sneak out from the bed. Had a cup of chocolate milk and toast bread. Told myself it's gonna be a good day! Nothing to do with dream and start working! I am a so productive!

The cover of CutOut Magazine.
Image taken from CutOut Magazine Facebook page.

Finally, it's here! I am featured in the CutOut Magazine as one of the Ten Best Female Worldwide Fashion Illustrator. I am feeling happy and blessed! This is not only a portfolio, it is a recognition of my hard works. I am glad that people see my effort in this short time. I am very lucky girl and I know I can fly higher! Wondering will I be traveling around the world in the future? Attending the high street fashion show?Working with the famous fashion designers in the world? Hmmm...

Anyway, I am chosen as one of the Final Year student to give talk and sharing for the First Year student on next week! It's an informal one as they will come and ask me some question and have a chat with me. It's gonna be a memorable one to speak in front of so many people in the foreign land. There is so much to experience! :)

It's time to get back to work now! Ciaoz! :)

Food is Love

2011-11-25T18:30:00.001Z

Tadah! So this is my "self-initiated project"! Hehehehe... Besides experiencing a new life in my dream land since I was a little girl - United Kingdom, I am also learning how to cook. I admit that I am a lucky girl. I guess a lot of us are lucky. Our parents or "Kakak" serve us food since we can remember, right? But, growing up is a progress that we have to go through in life. I believe that cooking is a part of it. Haha! This is just a sharing of what I've cooked over here. I bet a lot of you can cook better than me, so... Please laugh at me because this post is meant to entertain you. Hahahaha!

OK! Let's start laughing now!

This is one of my breakfast. Hehehe... Toasted whole meal bread with ham and vegetable. Of course, an apple a day keeps the doctor away! It's better not to fall sick in the foreign land!

Breakfast too. Toasted bread with jam and chocolate milk from Tesco... My all-time favorite!

Mee Soup with Italian wan-tan and chicken! Hohoho... I actually mix the soup by myself by using oyster sos and some pepper... Quite nice! :)

Salmon fish with broccoli, sweet corn and mini sausages. Love the salmon very much. I love to eat fish. That's why I like to eat sushi. Hahaha! Fish is expensive but it provides us protein and vitamin. So, must have!

Spaghetti carbonara, with corn, mushrooms, prawn and cheese! Yeah!

This is what I eat when I am lazy to cook. That is... Erm... Something like chicken pie and there is garlic inside. Very nice... There are a lot of flavor but I like the garlic one the most. Hehehe...

Another breakfast, whole meal bread with butter, strawberry and raspberry jam! This breakfast is too sweet. Because I have a cup of honey almost every morning. Honey is good for girls. Hehehe... I won't eat something so sweet in the morning anymore. Have to keep the balance... Hmmm...

Another flavor of spaghetti, hehehe... This time with the carrots!

Another lazy meal... Hmmmm... With carrot salad. :)

This is the first porridge that I cook in my life. Hehehe... Very successful and delicious! I cook too much and I keep it for dinner too. There are pork, carrots and mushroom in the porridge. :)

This was my supper few night ago. Chicken soup mee with vegetable and eggs. A normal one... But it keeps me warm during the cold cold night. :)

Another mee soup, with pork and Italian wan-tan. I have a lot of Italian wan-tan in the fridge. I guess I can eat until the end of this year. Wohohoho!

And today... Sweet and sour chicken! Another successful one! I likeyyyyy! Hohoho!

I guess I am not only a graduate of BA(Hons) Visual Communication in Illustration when I finish my course over here. I will be a graduate of BA (Hons) Culinary Art too. Wahahahahahahahaha! I sent my uncle my food's photo through Whatsapp or Viber every time after cooking and he complained that I always make him hungry. Hahahaha! iPhone makes everything easy. I keep in touch with him everyday! He asked me to cook him the sweet and sour chicken when I am back in Malaysia. Hehehe... Hopefully I will improve and cook him a nice meal when I am back.

He said that this is a part of the training of growing up. He is right. I am training myself to become a good mother in future. Hahahahahahaha! Anyway, since I start working, you know how I feel after working for the whole day? I just wish that there will be nice food on the dining table everyday I get home... I guess, everyone feel the same, right? A perfect family is what I always wanted in my life since I don't have a perfect one since I was a little girl. I hope in the future, when my husband and kids are back from work and school, they always have nice food on the dining table, waiting for them... Nah! This is just a wish. Who knows I might not get married in the future? Hoho!

Okay... I will continue posting the food, let's see I get improve in the future? Hehehe... Till then! Joy and peace peeps! :))

A Fairytale Christmas

2011-11-22T14:35:00.004Z

This Christmas is truly a fairytale one for me, although there is no Prince. Hahaha! UK is full with Christmas mood. Visited the German Christmas Market. And now... My illustrations are finally on the website and more is coming soon. Stay tune peeps! Because this is going to be huge... It's not only on the magazine, brochure... It will be in the top shopping malls in Malaysia too!

So, remember to visit the shopping mall in KL during this December to feel the Fairytale Christmas, illustrated by me! Yay! I can't wait to see the outcomes of my hard works of 4 months!!! :)

Visit http://www.fairytalechristmas.com.my/ for more!

Sing this to me... And I will marry you. :)

German Christmas Market #1

2011-11-20T01:01:00.003Z

Photo taken by Ricoh, from ShingYuan.

Hello peeps! Me and my friends went to the German Christmas Market just now and guess what? There are a lot of people! We didn't manage to get our beer because there are too much people queueing up over there! Plus, some of my friends didn't bring their passport. Yea, you need to show your passport if you wanna get alcohol drink over here. So, we plan to go again. I wanna have the honey wine! I am not going to miss it next time! The German Christmas Market will last until the Christmas. So, we will go there and grab a drink for a few times? Hehehe...

It's Christmas! I love their handcraft so much... So many details and they look so adorable!

Beautiful crystal balls selling in the market. Honestly, the prices are not cheap.

I love this! I love the elephant one so much! Simply love everything of Bohemian style. :))

It's snowman! Cute, right?

This is what I used during my letterpress workshop. They are selling the typeface in the market too. How I wish I can have all of them. We surely can't find these back in Malaysia.

After walking for sometimes, we felt hungry. So, we decided to have sausage as our dinner! The sausage stall is so crowded...

So many sausages! All pork, in white and red. I got the red one... Hehehe...

£3 for this super long sausage. I added Mustard and Tomato Sos. The sausage is nice but a bit too salty. Food over here is salty and their dessert is super sweet. Hmmm... Not good. Not good.

And then... Marry-Go-Round! Adults are playing too. Hahaha! Romantic, I should say. :)

And then, we continued walking. ShingYuan showed me this! What a cute chocolate!!!

I love this so much!!! It's £1.50 for each. I wouldn't eat them if I buy them. They are too adorable!

Owh well, you can view the rest of the photos on my Facebook album. I am lazy to upload everything over here. Hehehe... And ShingYuan took some photos of me and LeeTeng with his new bought Ricoh camera. The colors of the camera are amazing!

Eileen and me at the stall. Hahaha! Another "Eleen". But she pronounced her name as "Alien". LOL!

LeeTeng and me at the Victoria Square fountain, in front of Birmingham City Council. This photo is original, without editing. Look! No doubt! Ricoh is GAAAAWWWD!

The black and white version, from Ricoh too. So old and vintage, right? Like we are from 1920. Hahahahaha! Love Ricoh's color so much! But, I still love my Canon! :D

Last but not least, what I got from the German Christmas Market?

A dream catcher. "As a Native American legend is told, by hanging a dream catcher over your sleeping area, the bad dreams will be deterred by the bead in the feathers will attract and allow the good dreams to pass through." I got bad dreams these days... And I woke up with fear. Hopefully the dream catcher helps? Haha... I am not superstition, but since it says so, I bought it... For... Fun. LOL. Anyway, let's see whether it works. Hahahaha! And now, I hang the dream catcher at the window. It looks really nice. :)

A pair of winter gloves. It's grey color. It only cost me £9 and the quality is superb superb superb! You can open up the fingers part of these gloves. I bought this gloves mainly because it's more convenient for me to tap the phone when the phone rings during winter. Hehehe... My friend saw me buying and she is going back to the stall to grab one pair on next time. :)

Alright! Gotta say hello to my lovely bed now and I will visit the German Market again... I need to pass the market every time I go to the university campus. Hahaha! By the way, I am working on a "self-initiated project", which I am making it for my self improvement and for your entertainment. Hehehehe... Wanna know more? Stay tune for my future blog post then! Life is good! :)

Ciaoz peeps! Love!

Exploration

2011-11-18T01:21:00.011Z

Have been busy writing my dissertation lately, visiting the libraries and sending emails to the artists and designers that I want to include in my research. Degree provides me a platform to have communication and sharing with other illustrators in the industry. I feel blessed. I am doing what I really love, which is art and design as my study and also my career. Some people said some job won't last forever due to the changing of the market and the trend of the industry but I believe that I will make this my life long career. I am a fast learner and I am willing to explore different possibilities. I am thinking to work at home in the future, I am that kind of girl who likes to stay with the family (sounds like I am promoting myself, hahahahahahaha! But I have a plan for my future ok? LOL!), maybe a part-time lecturer, a fashion illustrator and also... A mummy! All together at the same time. :)

Studying, summarizing... Owh! Since I dislike the iPhone casing as it covers the uniqueness of the iPhone design, I got Siri a white bumper. See, Siri is so WHITE now! :)

Books! Books! Books! The last time that I touched my book was my high school and now, I need to read again. LOL! I have to admit that reading and writing improves my English. Gotta keep reading as a habit!

Emailed some of the artists and designers. Not every designers will reply you. Hahaha! Guess they are busy or having something more important to do. But I am so happy that some of the artist replied me and they accepted my interview. A Japanese painter - Mr Takashi Agasaka accepted my interview too. I am so happy! Wohoooo... Although it's a bit hard in the communication part but everything works out great! I appreciate his help and patience in answering my questions and also did some sharing with me about his works and portfolios. Believe me, they are simply awesome! He is having 2 solo exhibition in Yokohama and Kyoto next year. I guess I don't have the chance to visit, except there is cheap tickets deals "unexpectedly". Hahaha!

Been thinking not to buy house when I am back in Malaysia. I would like to spend money on traveling since I am still young and energetic. I have this thought since I took flight alone from UK back to Malaysia and from Singapore back to UK. Before that, I thought that I used to be a girl who depends on other people. But flying alone from one side of the world to the other side of the world makes me feel that I can actually do anything by myself. Sometimes, you are able to see more when you are walking alone. You get the chance to observe the tiny little details around you without distraction. Agree? And then, someday... When the time comes, I would like to share my experiences with my loved one, my kids, my grandchildren... :)

It's a big big world for us to explore. We are lucky to have a healthy body and mind to walk around the world.

Uhmmm... Look tired without make up? :/

Hair is getting longer and I decided to go back to the center hair line that I used to have during primary school. I feel that I quite like it actually. What do you think? :P

Till then, good night peeps!

Ten Days

2011-11-15T21:12:00.003Z

Ten days of waiting... And finally it's here! I am now an iPhone user! Woohoo! This is the Christmas present that I gave to myself. Hehe... Christmas is coming and I can't wait for the German Market on this weekend. It's going to be a lot of fun and photography session! :)

Having fun with the phone, playing with the Siri. Asked her to marry me but she said we hardly know each other. Hahahahaha! Seriously, I felt so hurt. Maybe I should ask her again next time. LOL! Busy downloading some apps, and yea... Had a quick chat with my uncle by using WhatsApp. Found out that he was still awake at around 2am. He is still feeling sad of the lost of grandma. I hope he will get well soon. Time heals... Right? I was constantly thinking about grandma and uncle during these days too, the moment before I sleep. There used to be 3 important person in my life, I mean very very very, very important one, who influenced me a lot. They are my grandma, my uncle and the last one will be him. I guess, I have lost 2(?) and the only one I left is my uncle. Anyway, whether they are still here with me "physically" or "mentally", I will always love them, holding them in my heart and pray for their happiness.

Alright, that's all for the emo part. Life is great. Although it seems hard sometimes, but try to look at things in your life in a different perspective. Who knows you might discover something that you never experience before? I am positive, all the time. And it gives me hope. :)

Read the Heart Sutra (known as 心经) for a few times every night before I sleep, and recently I am trying to sing it as a song. There is one sentence in the sutra, saying "心无罣礙，无罣礙故，无有恐怖远离颠倒梦想". This is interesting and yea... It's really hard to practice this. I am learning. I think uncle is learning too...

I hope you guys have a good day. Till then! Peace and love.

Movember

2011-11-11T19:42:00.023Z

Hello guys! How's your 11.11.11 going on? Mine was boring. Hahaha... I spent this memorable day...

Reading, writing, typing and preparing for my Monday presentation. Have to complete my thesis as soon as possible but I am slacking around. Urgh! terrible me!

Anyway, I got my free sim card from GiffGaff already! Wohooo! GiffGaff is a mobile network run by the community. They don' have a store and everything is online. I signed up for the package which is only £10 per month with 250 mins free local calls, unlimited texts and the most important one... UNLIMITED MOBILE INTERNET!!! Wohoooo!!! And now, I can't wait for my iPhone 4s to arrive! I check my mail box everyday! Hahahaha! So, I guess I can Whatsapp with my uncle soon. I've created an account for him by using his Samsung Galaxy S II, taught him how to "fully utilize" it. Now, he knows how to reply my email by using his smartphone. Hahaha! I miss him so much, seriously... I called him on the early morning on this special today to say good morning. I don't know why... I miss him so much and I pray that he is healthy, happy and safe, every night before I sleep.

Oh, talking about internet... You know we can't live without internet nowadays. Those days when my internet was down, I felt down too. LOL! I went to the Starbucks, use the internet connection over there, ordered a cup of hot Mocha... And yea... I gained something too. I got the chance to talk to a woman, named Lauren, who is a mix of British and Italian. So, I asked her about Italy. I always want to visit Florence, the birth place of Renaissance. I wish I can visit the art museum and have a close look at all the famous statues! She suggested me to go during February and March. So, let's see I get the chance. Maybe me and my friends will go for a long trip to visit Paris at the same time. :)

It feels good to talk to her. She told me about she is waiting for a friend and she just met her boyfriend. He is an alcoholic and he is going to Wales, so they will be meeting again after 2 weeks. We talked about the alcohol thing and the importance of taking care our body and health. Hahahaha! Like old aunties' talk. But I enjoyed talking to a "Mat Salleh"! They are open minded and kind. :)

Another thing which is spinning in my mind lately... The TOMS!

Their MOVEMBER Limited Collection. Simple design. They caught my eyes.

I guess I will get a pair of TOMS on next year Spring. I am sure I don't have the chance to wear during Winter. It's freezing!

The Movember limited edition, £45

Teal Pop Herringbone Women's Classic, £40

Red Snowflakes Women's Classic, £40 *LOVE this!*

Bottle Green Linen Women's Classic, £37

Red Canvas Classic, £33 *Red is always attractive, isn't it?*

Honestly, if you put all these shoes in front of me, I don't know which one I should choose... Hahaha! TOMS is available at Selfridges, Bull Ring. I will visit there soon on next week! :D

And I just got to know that there will be a German Market on next week. Wohooo! Another good news! I always heard from my colleagues that German Market is fun. I am going to experience it on next week! Foods and drinks!!! Beeerrrrr!!! Wineeeee!!! I have stopped drinking since I start working in Penang. So I guess I should drink some over here. Beer and wine are something you cannot miss in Western country! :))

And then, finally... The MV is out on 11.11.11!!! Katy Perry's The One That Got Away!

I cry like a baby, from the beginning of the song till the end of the song.

Saw a series of wedding photographs on Facebook by Molaman Photographers :

Photos credits to Maloman Photographers.

This is just so romantic... I wish I could have these someday...
So, what to do now? KEEP A NICE BODY! Hahaha!

Till then, stay tune peeps! :D

My Little Living Space

2011-11-08T15:58:00.003Z

Hey yo peeps! Since I have already settled down in UK, so I am going to share some photos of my little living space. It's kinda comfy actually...

My room! Guess what? I have the smallest room among my friends. One of my friend is so lucky because she got the O.K.U room, which is the disabled room and it's really big! But it's ok since I am living alone. Who knows bigger space will make me emo because it's too empty. Haha!

This is the entrance and the bathroom is right beside the entrance. The bathroom is very small too... But it's alright because I am thin. Hahahahahaha!

All my must-have stuff. Oh ya... I got the Clinique 7 day Face Scrub for free! Hahahaha! It's good and I am going to buy one after I finish using this one. Clinique is selling cheap in UK. By the way, I found out that the cotton pad which is selling UK are all in round shape but we have square shape one back in Malaysia.

The shampoo holder space is very small. I hope they will give us a bigger one... You know girls always have a lot of shampoo and scrubs. :P

My notice board. I realized that most of the people have their family and friends photos on their notice board. But I don't even have one. Hahahahaha! This is to prevent me from feeling homesick. LOL. But I actually have one photo of me and him! :P I printed it by using my printer, it's a photo test print. I got my printer for only £35 and it can print photos with high quality. Worth it! :)

There is a book shelf on the notice board. I borrowed some books from the library and the time of borrowing is actually UNLIMITED! You can keep the book as long as you want but you will have to renew it on the uni's library website. Hehe...

This is another shelf beside the long mirror in my room, placing all the stuff that I need before I step out from my room.

The food and groceries part... Tissue in UK is expensive!

Shampoo, message oil, mask, contact lens, combs, medicine...

The Holland Barrett message oil is my favorite! It's selling only £3.15 over here. It's better than the lotion and it moisturizes our skin, especially when the weather is cold and dry. Anyway, I D.I.Y the message oil by myself. I applied some Lavender and Tea Tree oil in the message oil so that it smells better. Hehehe...

Besides, I also have a Aroma lamp in my room. Same thing, you just need to pour water on top, applied some Lavender or Tea Tree oil, and then your room will smells good within a few minutes. I love the Lavender smell because it makes me feel relaxing. Tea Tree is good for sterilization. By the way, Rosewood smells good too... You can try if you are interested! :P

Some view in my drawer...

The closet... Honestly, the closet is too small. Because the winter cloths are quite thick, so I have to "squeeze" it. Hahaha...

And then, the shoes!!! Wohohoho... 5 pairs and still counting! Planning to get myself a high top sneakers from Adidas or Nike, I am starting to do survey now and I haven't meet "The One". Hehehe...

Alright, next one will be the living room in my flat. You can see the city center from the living room. By the way, even though there is a TV. We didn't watch it. Hahaha! In UK, you need to pay if you want to watch TV. You will need to pay for the TV license.

The dinner table. That's Lee Teng's pumpkin. She bought it for halloween. But the pumpkin is still there... LOL!

This is the fridge. 5 of us shared it. So it's full! Hahaha!

This is how we fully utilized it. Hahahaha! The top one belongs to Lee Teng and the bottom one is mine. :)

This is our cooking space. There are kettle, oven and microwave available. Anyway, one of the kettle belongs to me. I bring it to my room sometimes. Besides, vacuum cleaner and iron are available too! Hehe... As you can see, my hostel is super convenient. They have everything we need.

Yea, basically this is how my hostel looks like. Forgot to mention that it's Opal 1 Birmingham. You can click on the link to see the rest. They have gym and swimming pool too but you will need to pay for that. Hehe...

Ok, that's all for now peeps. Gotta finish up my 7 Adidas posters! :))

My white fluffy hat from aunt! It's Armani Exchange A|X!

Ciao peeps!

The Lion and The Apple

2011-11-05T10:51:00.002Z

Hostel internet was down for the pass 2 days but it's already back now! Anyway, since the system preferences in my Mac is "losing". I upgraded my MacBook Pro's OS X from Snow Leopard to the new Lion OS X. No doubt, no regrets! It's the coolest thing I ever seen!

Had fun with all the features in it and it's really really cool!

Like iPhone, you can scroll by using your finger on the touch pad. Do you know Apple has the coolest touch pad on earth? :P

And, guess what? After 2 years of "thinking". Finally...
I got myself an iPhone 4s WHITE!!!
I got it with my own hard earn money! I am so contented! And now, I can WhatsApp, Facebook, Tweet and iMessenger anywhere I want! Oh my God! I am so excited! Waiting for my iPhone 4s to reach my door steps! :)

picture credit to Apple.com

I am a happy little girl!

A Short Trip

2011-10-28T19:43:00.006+01:00

Sunday, went back to Singapore with my uncle. The last time I visited Singapore was 10 years ago, it has been a long long time. I stayed in uncle house during my stay in Singapore. His house is really beautiful although the furnitures are simple. My aunt loves Bohemian style. The carpets, bed sheet are all in curvy design and bohemian style. The soap holder in the bedroom is a real shell! My uncle said he bought it from Thailand during his works over there for a few years. There are also a lot of crystals in his house because aunt is a big fan of crystal. She has really great taste in designing and managing the house.

The second day, uncle brought me to some places to see beautiful scenery. We both are like father and daughter. Grandmother is one of our major topic. We miss her so much...

Singapore flyer. Random shot when I was in the car.

Uncle brought me to see his portfolio.
He is a civil engineer and this is one of the project that he involved in.

We visited the Marina Barrage. It's all about water and water is very important for Singapore.

The third day, I woke quite late due to I worked until late night on yesterday. After lunch and shopping for some groceries, my cousin, Jocelyn and her boyfriend brought me to visit some places in Singapore. We went to Clarke Quay to have some drinks. Clarke Quay is a perfect place for drinks! No doubt, South East Asia countries are really happening as it's always summer and we can go everywhere at anytime.

Aunty Karen's SE Mini Xperia. I was so happy when I first saw it. It's really cute! Hahaha!
By the way, aunty Karen gave me a lot of pendants and a lucky pendant with rabbit.
My Chinese horoscope is the snake and she said rabbit is my best friend. :)

The Clarke Quay night view. Beautiful lights...

Me and Jocelyn having our wine, cheers!

Our group photos: me, Jocelyn and Jason. Jocelyn and Jason have been together for 3 years and feels like family. We have so many topics to talk about and we have a great time together. Thanks for their help and brought me to all the beautiful places.

Singapore's night view. The architectures are really beautiful!

Happy Halloween! The eyes of the skull and the head of the black cat are actually moving. Haha!

@ The Marina Bay. This is how girls feel like when we Chanel! Hahaha!

The forth day. We went for the last shopping for groceries and I had dinner with all the relatives before leaving Singapore.

We had Teow Chew cuisine at a famous restaurant in Singapore called "Tian Wai Tian".

The foods are really delicious!

This is the little handsome neighbour beside my uncle's house. His name is "Yu Zhen Xian" and we keep calling him "Yu Hen Xian" which means Salty fish. Hahaha! Normally, he will argue with you if you called him the wrong name but he didn't do so that night. Hahaha!

He said to me "I see you!" and I said "I see you too!" Hahaha! He is the cutest boy that I ever met! My uncle told me he used to jump on my uncle's bed to wake my uncle up. He reminds me of myself when I was a little girl. I used to jump on my uncle's bed when I was a little girl too. Hehe...

And just before leaving the house... Guess what again? This little handsome boy KISSED me!!! Hahahahaha! OMG he is a really cute boy!

This time, I really need to thank my aunt. She helped me to buy all the stuff that I need. She even bought me some medicines for me to bring to UK. Besides, she gave me a lot of cloths and cardigan, so that I won't have to go shopping for cloths anymore. Hehehe... I am going to save the money for the Europe trip. And... She also gave me some products for moisturizing and introduced me some organic facial products. She even helped me to pack my luggage!!! She travelled to many places and she is so good in packing luggage. Haha... Actually, we don't really communicate with each other and we seldom see each other. This time, things changed my mind. Sometimes, people who are far from us actually care about us too. And I am really touched by her... She helped me so much... And also uncle and mum. Uncle is like my dad. I can feel he love me so much, we got even closer to each other after grandma passed away. And also, mum is alone at home now... Sister is studying in Penang and bro is in KL. There is no one with her now and she is always on my mind. I hope she is doing fine all the time...

...

I was constantly missing him all these days... Still feeling he is the one that I want to share my life with. Can't stop missing him even when I was spending my time with my family and walking around Singapore. He is always on my mind. Sometimes, I was negative and sometimes I was positive. At first, I have no idea whether I should give it up. I don't feel like myself if I give it up and I don't know whether it's right if I have strong determination. I was so confused with my heart... Until, I went to the temple before leaving Malaysia...

I got myself a copy of "The Great Compassion Mantra, The Heart Sutra and Om Mani Padme Hum". When I was in Singapore, I saw a copy of the mantra on my uncle's bed too, but a bigger one. Uncle can actually memorized the Heart Sutra and he read it to me. Hahaha! And now, I read the Heart Sutra every night before going to bed. Praying for all the people at home and all the people that I love and love me as well. Feeling better now... But still, I hope there will be a clearer answer whether I should walk away. Perhaps, someday... When he is with another one is the day I will be walking away forever...?

People said it's not worth to stay. But for me, I think there is no such thing like worth or worthless. I think it's all about what do you really want to do. Maybe this is the thing that God wants me to learn? To give and don't ask for repay. Sincerity.

I miss him... I met him in my dream, like I spent the whole day with him... And then waking up with a big smile on my face. When I was walking on the street or sitting there alone. I always think of his every action. The way he stand, the way he walk, the way he talk... They just came out from my heart and mind like that... Uncontrollable. Couldn't stop it. My heart says it all, I love him very much... Very very much.

It never stops...

最后的告白

2011-10-21T16:35:00.008+01:00

前三天到家，感觉昏沉沉的，下了飞机就马上赶到丧处。很多亲戚朋友都很意外，他们都以为我不会大老远地飞回来。不过我知道，如果我不回来，我会遗憾终生，因为婆婆最疼的就是我。上了香，看了婆婆，她不一样了。我相信人死后，灵魂一直都在。第二晚，我再去看看婆婆的时候，她的脸变得慈祥好多。那个时候，我和大伯站在棺木旁，静静地用我们的心，和婆婆说话。大伯也说，婆婆看起来慈祥了好多，或许是因为，大家都回来了的关系吧？除了我，在世界各处的亲戚朋友也都回来了，所以，婆婆的葬礼很热闹。

刚到那一晚，和大伯坐在火炉旁，和大伯谈了很多，发现和我年龄相近的亲戚已经在计划买房结婚，另一对在外国已经同居了。我替她们开心，从小一起长大，现在知道她们幸福，心里也替她们开心，当然的，也有一点点的妒忌和羡慕⋯ 然后，大伯就问起我的事情了。这是我第一次和 “爸爸” 谈这样私人的事情，有点紧张，但是还是一五一十地把发生的事情告诉他。很意外的是，一直以来，他都认为我的脾气很不好，认为所有的争吵和不满都是我挑起的，可是这一次，他没有这样说我。反而，他看得见我一直以来的努力，他很支持我，很谅解我，也替我分析，我真的很意外。有好几次，差一点在火炉旁掉眼泪，可是还是忍了下来，毕竟我没有在他的面前哭过。也许是因为大人的话，我比较听得进去，所以每当我想起他的时候，总是会想想大伯跟我说的话，然后努力地把自己从伤心中抽出来。

我承认我还是很伤心，尤其是又遇到婆婆的过世，伤上加伤。在生活上遇到什么快乐或者伤心的事情的时候，我还是会第一个想到他，心里忍不住要和他分享。但是，长情归长情，现实还是现实，而现实才是真的。我很爱很爱他，那又怎样？他不爱我。千千万万个我爱你抵不过一个你想的不是我。我不断地在坚持和放弃的边缘徘徊。我无数的坚持是因为我真的很爱他，相信他有他的原因，他有他想做的事情，也相信他还爱我。今天，我还是很爱他，但是坚持似乎是一件很遥远的事。每当我想他的时候，我都知道，他想的不再是我，而是另外一个人。然后，心会向下沉，很冷很冷⋯ 那种感觉叫失望，对吗？我是他的过去，而他依然是我的过去，现在和未来。我告诉我自己：“别傻了。” 我以为他把心锁起来了，心里永永远远只有我。我太天真，世上最先进国家的最高机密组织也有失窃的时候，何况是一个普通人的心？

我的执着让我伤心了。大伯说：“一个女孩子，要好好照顾自己，爱惜自己。”虽然表面上是很简单的一句话，可是包含了很多的含义。加上婆婆的逝世，也教了我一个道理，人生走到尽头的时候，我们就算有多少的不舍和执著，都要统统放下然后离开这个人间。所以，世上没有什么是放不开的。我们的烦恼来自别人的所作所为，一点都没有错，何况是我们最在乎的那个人⋯ 如果现在，你问我放得下他吗？我会告诉你，我不知道。放下一个人，不在于要还是不要，不在于肯还是不肯。我相信，当那个时候到了，我自然会放下的。放下，对我来说是不知不觉的⋯ 就像我以前爱上他一样，不知不觉地它静悄悄地来了，就让它也不知不觉静悄悄地离去。我承认，我还是希望他有回到我身边的一天，但是那不是我可以控制的范围了，我告诉我自己我能做的都是为了我自己，无法控制的事情就别想了。虽然偶尔还是会偷偷想，但是那只是想，因为我知道，他想的已经别人。

或许他是我生命里的一个过客，一个老师。我对他还是很感恩，没有他就造就不了今天的我，我也不会有机会看透那么多事情。最感谢的还是他的父母亲，他不在的日子，他们的关爱总是让我觉得很温暖。虽然在不久前才开始和他的妹妹有点默契，现在觉得有点可惜，但是我已经觉得很幸福。说真的，有的时候想到他的家人总会让我无法控制而哭得稀里哗啦，可能我真的很喜欢他们⋯ 就像我对他的爱一样，不知不觉静悄悄的我也爱上了他们。那天，他的父母出席婆婆的葬礼，我很感动，心里很感谢。其实他们已经通知我他们会到来，那个时候，我刚看了婆婆，从屋里走出来就看见他们，心里就有一种莫名的感动。他们总是对我很好⋯ 很好很好⋯

我的心乱糟糟的，好在葬礼上，无聊的时候有读了几面的佛书，领悟了一些道理，心情也跟着平静下来。大伯和伯母也教了我们一句话：“身体发肤，受之父母，不敢毁伤，孝之始也” 。意思就是，要做到第一件孝顺的事就是照顾好自己的身体，好好照顾自己就可以照顾父母，一个健康的身体才可以好好地孝顺父母。所以，对我来说，葬礼并不完全是伤心的，葬礼可以是一个另类的家庭聚会，也可以说是一个更深一层了解自己的宗教信仰的良好机会。从婆婆的葬礼上，我学习了很多，最大的收获是我对佛学有更深的了解。我也打算在离开的时候带一本佛学书，毕竟在外地，遇到什么困难的时候，我们的信仰是我们的精神支柱。

这一篇乱糟糟的文章，是我的心情写照，也是我最后的告白。我答应我自己，以后就算发生了什么事情，都要乐观地去面对，虽然过程很辛苦，但是要坚定，坚持自己的信仰。还有，做什么事情，说什么话，都不要因为自己而伤害别人，也不要去恨一个人，我不喜欢讨厌人的感觉，因为恨一个人真的很难受。现在，想到不开心的事情，我还是会哭，但是我相信慢慢地我就会把生活上的重心调整好，然后出发上路，向我的未来出发。或许，我需要的时间会比别人长。但可贵的是，在这一段挣扎的日子中，我有一班知心朋友陪我度过。

然后，一切一切，随缘⋯

婆婆，永在怀念中⋯⋯

田心

2011-10-13T03:55:00.000+01:00

3.33am

夜深了，人静了。

你在做什么？在想什么？

你过得好吗？你快乐吗？

你健康吗？你平安吗？

想你的时候，看看你的照片，看看你的录影。

你的笑容最好看，希望你会像照片和影带里一样，一直笑。

我想你了。

但愿在地球另一端的你，幸福。

In another life

2011-10-08T23:31:00.005+01:00

Called back home yesterday. Talked to mummy. Got to know that grandma is not fine. Things getting serious. But I have already prepared, mentally prepared before flying to this cold land. I know that the day will come. Have no idea when is it but I am ready. Have been thinking... When I come to the last moment in my life, who will be with me? Who will I be that time? How will I look like? Life is too short. Gotta appreciate whatever we have, especially people who love us... And live like it's the end of the world. :)

Skype with family again this afternoon. Saw mum, sister, uncle and relative from Singapore on the screen. They were cheering to me, holding a glass of beer on their hand. Hah! I miss them so much! I love them! I wanna drink with them when I am home! *Grins* I told uncle what I bought, what I had for my meal, how many meals I had per day, showed him the Hello Kitty shower gel that I got from Tesco (He knows I love it since I was a little girl.) I even showed him those jackets I got from H&M. He said they are pretty. (Awwwww....) He just can't stop laughing when I told him I ate a lot of cheese. LOL! But I am still losing weight. You can pull my pants down easily. Muahahaha!

Life is great over here. Healthy foods and good exercise. You won't believe that I cook everyday, every meal by myself. You won't believe that I can now go to the city centre alone and enjoy shopping by myself! You won't believe that I can now walking alone on street, like I know where I wanna go on this stranger land. Because I couldn't believe it too. Muahaha! I thought I will need someone to accompany me wherever I go. In fact, NO. Sometimes, I prefer to go somewhere alone by myself, enjoy my own company. Who knows I might travel to Europe by myself someday? :P By the way, no worries. Birmingham is safe. :)

4/10/2011. Sunny day.

Put on my Marc Jacobs shades. Plugged in the iPod and headed to the city centre. By myself.

Addicted to Katy Perry's songs recently. Her songs always touch my heart. I cried when I listened to her songs. 2 years ago, it was "Thinking Of You". And now, it's "The One That Got Away". She sings my heart and I can't stop playing this song. :)

"In another life, I would be your girl. We keep all our promises. Be us against the world. In another life, I would make you stay. So I don't have to say you were the one who got away..."

It has been a month and I truly miss him... But I know, what I did was right. Loving someone doesn't mean you to have to have them by your side. You only need to have them in your heart. So, I wrote myself a note and sticked it in front of my study table.

A reminder to myself. Even though there is no news and no updates from him, I send him my best wishes with my heart. Whenever I feel lost, I feel down or sad, this simple sticky note motivates me. I love him so much and I want him to be happy.

And now, I put a smile on my face wherever I go, believing that faith will bring me where I belong. :)

The Crazy Thing

2011-10-02T12:56:00.002+01:00

THIS IS DRIVING ME CRAZY!!!!!!!!

CAN YOU BELIEVE THIS???????!!!!!!

OMGGGGGGGG!!!!! I AM SO HAPPY!!!!!!!!!!

Officially 22!

2011-10-01T01:07:00.007+01:00

Hello all! I am finally 22! 10 years later... Maybe I will have a perfect family, a perfect husband... And perfect kids! Anyway, I always wish to have a daughter. Will it come true in the next 10 years? :P Alright, it's too early to talk about... Kids, since I just turned ADULT 1 years ago. Hahahaha!

Outfit of the day:

Top from H&M

Tights and Oxford shoes from Primark

(Guess what? The shoes only cost me £8! Primark is heaven!)

Well, no cakes for this birthday. I think the last birthday cake that I got was like... 5 years ago? It's from him, a mix fruit cake. Plain white, with a lot of fruits in it, got it from a bakery shop near high school. It was the tastiest cake that I ever had in my life. :)

I celebrated my birthday in Birmingham Sea Life Centre, somewhere near The Mail Box, a shopping mall in Birmingham. It was fun! The funniest part is when we got into the entrance. Why? Because we only saw KIDS! Hahahaha! My friends and I started laughing because we felt like we have came to the wrong place. But anyway, we enjoyed it to the max! The fishes are beautiful...

We took many photos on this very special day. You can click on HERE to have a view on my Facebook album. By the way, check it out the videos too. Hahahaha... I actually had a lot of fun with the Ben & Jerry ice-cream vending machine. It's super awesome! I think Malaysia should have this and I bet many people will go for it because Malaysia has super hot weather! Ice-cream on hot weather would be perfect, right? :P

Besides, I called uncle, he sent me a birthday email. Mum called at night, just before 12am in Malaysia to wish me "Happy Birthday". One thing good about studying abroad is... You get to hear from your family and every time you talk to them, you feel so good and the same for them. Last time, I always thought I am ok without family around. But eventually I found out that family plays an important role in life. When I was working in KL, I always wanted to go home. Because my family is there, my friends are there... Everyone I love is there, and I want to stay with them. Same thing, before I was here, I always thought I wanna look for a job here and stay in UK. But I guess it's impossible now, because I miss Malaysia's food so much... LOL! Trust me, Malaysia's food is the nicest food on earth! We are so lucky because we are Malaysian! :)

One more thing to share, I went to the bank this morning with my friend. We had an appointment with a bank officer to apply for a savings account. The bank officer was friendly and funny. He told us that he has a friend from Malaysia and currently working for the bank too. He loves Malaysia. LOL! Then, when I passed him my passport, he took a glimpse, he looked at me and said: "Owh wow! Yesterday was your birthday! Happy birthday!" Hahahaha! Then he started asking how I celebrated my birthday. Blah blah... LOL! A very "special" banking account appointment.

My birthday was... Awesome. No party, no alcohol. Just peace! Happy to get birthday wishes from all the friends. When I first woke up in the morning, I got a birthday SMS from one of my old friend, ZhiCheng. I was so happy because she got my UK cellphone number even I didn't give her. I guess she got it from my Facebook? Haha! But I was really surprised. Thanks to his mum, don't worry aunty! I have got your SMS from my Malaysia number and I love you too! Thanks to JunNing, she is super busy and I am so happy that she came online on Facebook to wish me "Happy Birthday"! Thanks to JunRui too. I am so sorry because I didn't check my Twitter's message so I didn't reply on time. Thank you so much for the wishes! And, a big THANK YOU to my friends - LeeTeng, HuiYen and ShingYuan for accompanying me to the "kids land" - Sea Life Center. Hahaha! I guess we are the only teenagers over there. Only parents, kids and teachers will visit that kind of place. Hahahaha! But... I really had fun! A lot of fun! Aww... I can't express by words how grateful and thankful I am to get all the birthday wishes, love and care from all the people. A big THANK YOU to everyone one of you who made this day so special to me! :')

By the way, today, I "baked" my first... Erm... Cheesy Spaghetti in my life. Haha!

Tadah!

It might looks normal for some people. Haha! But I am really happy with the outcome! It smells so good and it tasted great too! I am gonna cook this for my sis when I am back in Malaysia. Still wanna experiment with other flavours and spices, I am so excited. Cooking is fun! And I found out that I am actually quite talented in cooking. Let me "sharpen" my skill and I think I will be a great mum in the future! Hahahaha! Anyway, me and my friend, Lee Teng are planning to bake on this coming Christmas holiday. :)

I was doing research, working on my sketch book, preparing my presentation during this few days. Guess what? I only have ONE lesson PER week. Wahahahahaha! Of course, I need time to do a lot of experiments and research for my dissertation and projects. So, I guess I need to attend a lot of workshops and visit the library often to "fully utilize" my chance of studying over here. Besides working on my studies, I watched a lot of movies these weeks too. Hahaha... I watch anything! Hong Kong TVB dramas, English movies, Chinese movies, cartoons... Sometimes, I just wanna have some noises in my room so that I won't feel lonely.

I just finished watching this one, "The Time Traveller's Wife". It's really nice and of course, it makes you cry! The power of true love. It's not a new movie. For those who haven't watch it, make sure you watch it! It's a very nice movie. :)

Somehow, I wish I am a time traveller too. So that I can always see him. In the past, present and future... You know what? He is the most amazing man that I ever met. It takes more than forever to forget him...

Till then! :)

... Thinking to get a pair of Adidas high-top sneaker! Can't stop thinking about it since I saw Nat's sneaker from USA! > <

Good?

2011-09-26T16:42:00.003+01:00

I had a super duper weird dream last night. Usually I don't remember my dream ( I only remember the feeling), but this dream... I guess it freaked me out. That's why I remember it (?)

I dreamed that I went to a temple. I was praying and when I opened my eyes. I saw the GuanYing statue in front of me was changing it's outlook!!! Gosssh... The face of GuanYing changed from a God's face to another God's face... And they are looking at me. There are beautiful lights with different colors surrounding them. And then, I woke up.

I don't understand why I had this kind of dream. Check online to find out what does it means. Phoned back home to talk about it with mummy. Usually, I didn't tell her about my dreams. Hah! But I told her about it this time. Totally have no idea about it. Hahaha... Mum said it's good to see Gods in dream. Check online, and the feedbacks are good too. Of course I can't put 100% believe in dreams, but I guess it's a sign?

Anyway, I have a good news to share! The editor from CUTOUT Magazine (a magazine for designers) emailed me on yesterday. They would like to feature me in their November 2011 issue! Oh my God! I was so surprised! I guess, people have already seen my effort and now, it's time to brand myself in the art and design industry.

Honestly, no matter which field you are in, you have to be really clear about what you want to do in the future in order to success. I realized the importance since I start thinking about the project brief for my degree course. it's really important because whatever you do now, you have to make sure it helps in your future career and direction. I know some people might say "you are too young to set a target...", but if you think deeply about it, it's actually not about the age, it's about when you wanna start doing it. The earlier you start, the more you learn, the more you understand. By the way, it's still early for you to change another direction if you find out that you are not suitable/comfortable in your current status.

So, I told myself, losing a relationship isn't a bad thing after all. It might be a good chance for me to focus on my studies and career (which I think is much more important at this stage). A good chance for my self-improvement (self-soul searching). And not to forget, a good chance for me to study people. Time to grow up and be a smart woman, I mean a really smart one!

Alright, time to go back to the proposal for dissertation and negotiated project! I am so excited to meet up with all my classmates tomorrow! :))

"We are lucky because the only thing that bothered us is the relationship stuff. But for some people out there, they even need to think about do they have enough money or food to survive tomorrow."
So, be thankful and grateful! :))

Journey

2011-09-25T00:45:00.002+01:00

Bako National Park, March 2011.

I am all alone, but I am not afraid.
The roads are confusing, the rocks are slippery, but I have faith.
You are not around and I am all messed up, but no worries.

Once upon a time, "you are my vitamins, you are my oxygen."
Pass. Present. Future. You are. You will always be.
Even the sky is falling and the world is falling apart. Love never fails.

And again, I am alone on this journey, holding you in my heart.
My inspiration, my mentor, my belief...

My forever love.

The Oh-my-God Night

2011-09-20T00:05:00.004+01:00

So, finally it's the Orientation Night! At first it was quite boring... Because we have no idea what can we do over there. Hahaha... Like usual, they will have a welcome talk. Of course the talk is just a short one. Luckily... Because my heels are killing me. I am not used to heels although I love heels. Hehehe...

At the Birmingham City Council Hall. Trust me, this place is really nice!

Then, the fun part begins... PAAAAARRRTAAAAAY!!! They want us all in the dance floor. I never club or really dance before. So, since me and my group of friends don't have that kind of experience, we went away from the ballroom. Hahahaha...

Us... Near the dance floor...

We were told to wear our traditional wear... I feel regret actually... Because it's so weird to "dance" in Cheongsam... Hahahaha!

Anyway, I met a magician beside the dance floor. My week was quite... Erm... Nothing special actually... Didn't really laugh since I reach UK. But thanks to him, I screamed and laughed for the first time here. Hahahaha! His magic is.... AWESOME!!!

The magician and me...

And all of us... Guess what? Before he leave, he "vomit" a lot of poker card... Hahahaha! We were all shocked but it's really amazing. LOL!

I was struggling whether I should join them dancing... Because LeeTeng is not joining and she is resting in the washroom. So when I was thinking how should I spend my night, those people pulled me to the dance floor! LOL!

I don't know how to dance... But I learnt from all the people around. Hahahaha! It was really fun... And no doubt! Indians are really good at dancing! Hahahaha! We even have Punjabi at the dance floor! LOL! And... I get high at the dance floor! Hahahaha! Ohya... Even uncle and aunty in UK are good in dancing! They can shake like those super stars on TV! Hahahaha!

We left the dance floor once. But I pulled my friends back there again after a short break. They laughed at me and said I am starting to get high. LOL! I really enjoy dancing!!! And I guess I found my new interest... Dance and shake! Wohohohohoho!!! At first I feel quite weird to shake, but when you see people around you are shaking like nobody's business, you start shaking like them too... And you will feel... "Hey, that's easy and fun!" Hahahaha! I hope I have another chance to dance and shake again! I can't wait to go the dance floor! :P

"Never try never know", this is so true. Don't be afraid to try, who knows you will like it? Right? I never thought I will dance like that but I did!!! I can't believe it.... Hahahahaha! And I am still feeling high on the way home! LOL... There's too many things waiting for us to experience.

By the way, I had my body check up on the last weekend. I lost another 2kg!!! The day before I left UK, I lost 2 kg, and now I lost another 2kg!!! Oh my God!!! Trust me, I eat like normal... But I walked a lot! I was thinking of joining the gym but now I guess I have "free" gym almost everyday... I need to walk about 40-50mins to my uni campus once or twice per week. And when I need to go shopping for groceries, I need to walk about 20-30mins to the city center. As you can see.... I have a lot of "walking exercise". Hahahaha... And I can walk as fast as the local people now... Got trained in 3 days. I can walk really FAST now... LOL. UK is cold, cold for the whole year, including summer. Trust me, the sun is "fake". But, walking in cold weather is... comfortable. :))

Hola! The latest photo of myself. :))

Owhh... And now, I can't stop thinking about the dance floor. Wanna shake again! LOL!

Fitting in

2011-09-09T01:06:00.003+01:00

Hello from UK. Was busy settling down and shopping for groceries. My lecturer, now my friend, LoongWun introduced us his friend, Angel, who is living in Birmingham with her husband to us. And she guided us around Bull Ring today and treated us sushi as our lunch at Makiyo Sushi. Well, she worked as part time waitress there too. The food over there is nice!

Japanese food but the chef is not a Japanese. He is from Philipines. Hahaha! He cooked for us and he entertained us with some performance too.

Forgotten the name but this is so nice. Get to know that UK people doesn't like chicken drumstick because they think it's not healthy. So, drumsticks in UK are very cheap. Hahaha!

Sushi!!! Yea, you must be wondering: "Why are you having sushi in UK?!" LOL.

Fried rice in progress...

My first rice... In UK. :))

Yummy... Duck and chicken. LeeTeng and Angel had beef. But I don't eat it. :))

After the lunch and said goodbye to Angel, we went to the flee market @ Bull Ring to get ourselves the bed sheet, pillow case and duvet case.

We got ourselves everything from a stall. The uncle was really nice. He helped us to mix and match the bed sheet. Hahaha! Anyway, there is something to share. He sold us the pillow case for £3. And then, when he told us "three", we thought was "free". Hahahaha! We have to get used to the UK slang as soon as possible.

The Bull Ring street. The weather is good and I enjoyed walking on the street. Of course, lip balm is a must. Or else your lips will crack.

This is the bed sheet I got for myself. Lee Teng got the blue one. Hehe... I brought along the "BuBu", hahaha... I can't sleep well without it. It has been following me for the past 4 years...

The pattern on the duvet. Nice, right? :))

Ohya, besides shopping for some groceries, I got myself some other things. :P

Got all these from the Primark with very cheap price. Hehehehe... I am happy with the Oxford shoes and the pretty bag. Perfect to match with any clothing. Besides, I finally got my phone number in UK. Gotta call home tomorrow! :))

Alright, have to stop now and get some rest. Good morning peeps! And... Good night to me! :))

Confession

2011-09-07T00:26:00.002+01:00

Don't really have an idea how to start this post. Hahaha! Basically it's just a... Confession?

First, I would really love to thank all my friends and family. Thank you for the farewell dinner, big angpau and awesome presents... It means a lot to me. I will surely miss you guys when I am in UK. No worries, I will do my best in my studies and come back with an Honour! (Hopefully...)

Thanks to mum for arranging a family dinner for me. I had very very nice seafood in Tambun and lovely family members gathered around just to wish me the best for everything. Mum cried at the airpot. And seriously, I never hug my mum before... Never really hug her and I gave her a big hug for twice at the airport. I know she is very worry about me. And I promised I will take good care of myself in this super duper cold land! I will come back with a good results, make you proud of me! And of course, most importantly, I will stay healthy! I love you mum! :))

Thanks to dad for picking me up at LCCT and fetch me to KLIA. Thanks for arranging all my baggages for me. Thanks for accompanying me until the time I fly at midnight. And guess what? This is the first time in my life, in his life too... We both talk about his the other side of family. At least I know more about him now. Hahaha... I don't feel hate or angry about it. Whatever meant to be happened, it will happen. We can't blame anyone about that. So, I chose to forgive and forget. And I am already a big girl now. Maybe the little brother needs a father more than I do? :P

Thanks to ZhiCheng (my primary school best friend),WeiNee , my sister and all the friends... For coming to the airpot. You guys are awesome!!! Thanks to my sis and her friends for the handmade cards and booklet. All the wishes and letters they wrote for me made me laughed so much all the way flying from Penang to KL. Thank you everyone... You guys are sooooo awesome! :))

And of course... Thanks to my awesome colleagues. We shared many things together. They are elder than me and I've learnt so much from them. Of course good one lah... Hahaha! Thanks for guiding me in my job and career. Thanks for giving me a big smile every time I step into the office. I am so glad... to have all these awesome people around me! :)

Thanks to my friends... Primary school one, Secondary school one... Thank you so much for arranging farewell dinners for me and of course, presents from you guys... Thank you so so so much! You girls are whoever I turn to when I face difficulties in my life. Thanks for always be there for me to support me. I am so grateful to have you girls with me. You girls are great and beautiful! Have confident with yourself! :)

Thanks to his family members. I know aunty tried to spend sometime with me before I am leaving. School is opening soon and everyone in the education line are busy preparing. (Yea, I was in education line before too! :P) Before the day I left, we had Tutti Frutti, which now become JunNing's favorite, hahaha! Jokes and laughters all the night... Glad that everyone loves it too. Thanks to everyone, helping me to print out the accommodation documents. Thanks for inviting me to everywhere you go... I can feel they love me and care about so much and I really feel like I am part of the family. But 'good things' are not easy. Aunt called me when I was on the way to the airport to wish me all the best. Feel very warm. And of course, I dropped her a message when I reached UK. Her reply made me feel warm and blessed too. I really care about them a lot. And I love them, a lot...

Things aren't going well for past few weeks. I struggled a lot... Thank God I made it through. I questioned myself for a few times, whether I should hold on to it or walk away. I questioned myself again and again, doing my best to do whatever I can and should. I even asked my sister. No doubt she is now even more mature and she always give me good ideas. She told me: "Hold on to it. It's not too late to decide when you can see the situation clearer later." Never thought she will say something like that. So, never judge a book by it's cover. I always believe in her, my dear sister. And I turned back. I look into the issue and I think deeply for a few days. Seriously questioned myself, again and again. I love him, more than anything in this world. His eyes, his heart is wherever I call home. And I will never ask for any repay. I only know I love him and I must be true to myself, do what I really want to do and that's the best one. No matter his heart is still here or not. No matter he is still loving me or not. No matter what. As long as I am true to myself, I am proud of myself and that's what I am going to do. Be true. Love him, immensely.

Anyway, it took me a lot of tears to write this. Hahahaha! I feel good right now after releasing whatever is kept in my heart for sometimes. But I feel I have grown up, from the way I handle my problems and my thinking. I feel different. Obstacle in our life is always a good teacher. I am proud of myself to become me. :))

Lastly, thank you again everyone. For giving me beautiful memory, for making me feel warm. I am so thankful and grateful to have all these amazing people around me. Thank you... A lot. :))

And... Hello, Birmingham!